Feb 27, 2022 00:14
Uh. So… February seems to have gotten away from me. Or gotten to me. Or both.
Prepping for furlough-again-and now being out on furlough is taking a toll on me. The financial toll is horrific enough, since unemployment pays the smallest sliver of what I need to get by. It covers half my rent, which leaves everything else as something that is gutting my savings. I can’t pretend that the financial toll isn’t having an equal impact on my physical and emotional health. It is. My sleep is sporadic and restless; I’m carrying lots of tension/tightness in my neck/shoulders.
It’s a constant weight dragging at me, wearing me down. Exhausting me.
I started the post below at the beginning of February as a means of a monthly check-in to keep track of how I’m doing on goals and hold myself accountable. January wasn’t a bad month overall (especially when compared to February, so my January recap is below.
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I know at some point in the year, I’m going to feel down and that I’m off-track and not accomplishing things. That’s inevitably going to make me feel bad, want to self-flagellate (metaphorically), and give up. These little month-end round-up posts will hopefully help me realize that I didn’t just have a month of utter fail.
My first instinct was to include not just what I did but where I didn’t quite hit my goals, and then I shook myself and said, “Self, that kind of blame-riddled bullshit is what you’re trying to avoid. Only wins/good things go here.”
Words Written:
13,021 words
Fic Written:
“Ache and Absence” - The Witcher (TV). Geralt of Rivia/Lambert, Geralt of Rivia/Yennifer of Vengerberg.
“Behind the Door” - The Lord of the Rings (Films). Faramir/Boromir.
“Such a Beautiful Thing” - The Hobbit (Films). Bard/Thranduil
Poem(s) Written:
“The Fall of Solace” - Dark-fantasy, notional-ekphrastic poem.
Book(s) Read Fiction:
A Night to Surrender - Tessa Dare, Book 1 of Spindle Cove Regency romance
Supernatural Academy - Year One - Jaymin Eve, college-age magical academy romance
Supernatural Academy - Year Two - Jaymin Eve, college-age magical academy romance
Media Consumed:
Critical Role - Season 3, Eps 9 - 11, fantasy adventure web series (Twitch)
The Legend of Vox Machina - Season 1, Eps 1 - 3, fantasy adventure (Amazon Prime)
Ghosts - Season 1, Eps 1 - 4, supernatural comedy (Paramount+)
Blown Away - Season 1, Eps 1 - 8, glass-blowing competition series (Netflix)
NFL Wildcard and Playoff Games - Yes, all of them.
College Football National Championship - Go Dawgs!