Poo
I feel positively miserable at the moment.
Maybe its just the weather...maybe its these stupid books I've been reading lately.
I read this shit and I find myself wishing and wishing that I could find a guy like in these books...its always so perfect and natural. I guess I'm just confused about Scott...I want to be with him, but I know he's hurting me so much...to be honest, I wouldn't be suprised if he were chatting up a pretty young thing right now.
Oh how I've dreamed about him calling me and telling me he feels the same way...telling me he actually sees me and not the image I try to put on...I need that comfort and trust.
I remember how happy I was those days with him. I always felt like I travelled home on a cloud.
Just the sound of his voice was enough to make me smile and feel better.
Like I was saying to mum the other day, I need a break. I don't just mean from school either...I need a break from everything. I've gotten to this point where...I don't feel like I can try any more. I've pushed and pushed myself so much and there's nothing left.
I don't really feel like leaving the house tomorrow...the only real reason I am is to give Matt the blank CD. If I don't have Flash by the end of the week some things are gonna get broken I'm sure.
I hate this.
Maybe its just the weather...maybe its these stupid books I've been reading lately.
I read this shit and I find myself wishing and wishing that I could find a guy like in these books...its always so perfect and natural. I guess I'm just confused about Scott...I want to be with him, but I know he's hurting me so much...to be honest, I wouldn't be suprised if he were chatting up a pretty young thing right now.
Oh how I've dreamed about him calling me and telling me he feels the same way...telling me he actually sees me and not the image I try to put on...I need that comfort and trust.
I remember how happy I was those days with him. I always felt like I travelled home on a cloud.
Just the sound of his voice was enough to make me smile and feel better.
Like I was saying to mum the other day, I need a break. I don't just mean from school either...I need a break from everything. I've gotten to this point where...I don't feel like I can try any more. I've pushed and pushed myself so much and there's nothing left.
I don't really feel like leaving the house tomorrow...the only real reason I am is to give Matt the blank CD. If I don't have Flash by the end of the week some things are gonna get broken I'm sure.
I hate this.