"Reports of my LJ death have been greatly exaggerated"
Hey look at that, I just made a post. It only took over 2 years lol. I've finally found a way to easily post and have spent a chunk of today looking at my profile, posts, interests and memories. Some things have really changed! I joined LJ around the time the final HP novel was released and then made very sporadic posts, with some of them involving superheroes.
I had originally created this journal as an outlet and as a way to connect with others in fandom so I could stop being a lurker. I realised that I was not the best blog writer and found interaction to be tricky (no one needs to read your walls of textual venom, damsel!) but I still had a great time.
Then I watched The Avengers and found myself so utterly enraged by it (I now officially hate the Avengers movies and Iron Man movies forever and ever and refuse to watch their future movies since I utterly loathe Tony Stark) that even though I still have my draft in my computer I couldn't finish and post it. I had so many drafts of other things but couldn't finish them and found myself so disconnected from the MCU fandom because of my opinion on this sticking point that I decided to bow out for awhile and focus on other life things/fandoms for a bit.
I noticed like a time-frozen super soldier how things have changed and since LJ is now a quieter place and everyone has joined tumblr (which I might do later) I decided to commit to doing this post. It has a little less pressure attached to it.
Since I first joined LJ many things in my life had changed. I left university because I was miserable in my cage. My dog died. I began a traineeship which eventually became a job. I finally had the means to leave an extremely dysfunctional and toxic living situation and finally found that peaceful and safe room of my own. I began some self reflection and when I have the opportunity to do so I will get tested for some neurological/psychological stuff. I even finally went on an amazing US holiday in NYC and GA (I had never left my hometown or have been on a real holiday before) and finally felt for the first time in my life not just happiness but a real sense like not only was I the master of my destiny but that everything wasn't going to turn to shit. I began to draw and paint again and was fairly committed to it (unlike my poor nearly empty DeviantArt account attempt). I even became an auntie!
I have made my peace with the MCU because I still love the Thor and Cap movies and really like Agents of SHIELD. I have also discovered many other fandoms to enjoy so I have places to go to if it's needed.
I don't know if I will use this LJ more regularly now that I can use my iPhone or if I will be more committed to other means of communication but here I am, in this moment, at peace with myself and able to write about it. Not to mention finish a post!
I had originally created this journal as an outlet and as a way to connect with others in fandom so I could stop being a lurker. I realised that I was not the best blog writer and found interaction to be tricky (no one needs to read your walls of textual venom, damsel!) but I still had a great time.
Then I watched The Avengers and found myself so utterly enraged by it (I now officially hate the Avengers movies and Iron Man movies forever and ever and refuse to watch their future movies since I utterly loathe Tony Stark) that even though I still have my draft in my computer I couldn't finish and post it. I had so many drafts of other things but couldn't finish them and found myself so disconnected from the MCU fandom because of my opinion on this sticking point that I decided to bow out for awhile and focus on other life things/fandoms for a bit.
I noticed like a time-frozen super soldier how things have changed and since LJ is now a quieter place and everyone has joined tumblr (which I might do later) I decided to commit to doing this post. It has a little less pressure attached to it.
Since I first joined LJ many things in my life had changed. I left university because I was miserable in my cage. My dog died. I began a traineeship which eventually became a job. I finally had the means to leave an extremely dysfunctional and toxic living situation and finally found that peaceful and safe room of my own. I began some self reflection and when I have the opportunity to do so I will get tested for some neurological/psychological stuff. I even finally went on an amazing US holiday in NYC and GA (I had never left my hometown or have been on a real holiday before) and finally felt for the first time in my life not just happiness but a real sense like not only was I the master of my destiny but that everything wasn't going to turn to shit. I began to draw and paint again and was fairly committed to it (unlike my poor nearly empty DeviantArt account attempt). I even became an auntie!
I have made my peace with the MCU because I still love the Thor and Cap movies and really like Agents of SHIELD. I have also discovered many other fandoms to enjoy so I have places to go to if it's needed.
I don't know if I will use this LJ more regularly now that I can use my iPhone or if I will be more committed to other means of communication but here I am, in this moment, at peace with myself and able to write about it. Not to mention finish a post!