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I don't know what to say. All I can say is i'm trying so hard to get better. I'm being more helpful, more talkative, spending time with the family, trying so hard in school. But nobody in my familys noticing. It's like they only notice the bad and not the good. I'm barely hanging on here. They're restricting me from seeing the love of my life, like it's going to make things better. If anything, it's making things so much worse! I need to see him. I am so in love with him, and they just don't understand it. I'm trying so hard. I just wish they'd notice, and cut me some slack, or give it some recognition. Like, if they let me see Shaun at least twice a week, i'd have something to strive for. I'd try so hard even harder then normal, just to get better so i'd be able to see him more. But you see, I don't have him, so it's like I have nothing to strive for. I just wish they'd notice my hard work, and they'd let me see him more. I just really do. I am barely hanging on. I am trying so hard, yet barely hanging on.