Thoughts

Jun 07, 2006 07:31

Ever have that period in your life where you really feel like you need a huge change? Like you're just tired of the way things are, and find your daily "routine" boring? Well, I've been feeling like that for quite a while now and now I'm sitting watching people around me kinda getting on with their lives. Making changes!

I know 2 people who I've grown up with who are getting married, the closest one being next month. A friend of mine a few years ago made the decision to move to BC, just because he "wanted to". And I know other people who have left the country just to travel Europe for as long as they like, without worrying about a job.

I feel kinda "trapped"... I still live at home, and even though I love my parents...I'm dying for some freedom. I'm searching for a new job too. The only thing I'm truly happy with these days is the fact I have a wonderful guy whom I'm absolutely in love with.

And that's where my problem is. Maybe if I stopped opening my big mouth and talking about the "wedding"... and "oh let's buy a place together"... last night I realized that it really must make him feel pressured. I don't want him to feel pushed or anything... I just want him to know (which I'm sure he does by now) that I want him to be a part of my future. I just need to deal with what I have now and enjoy every minute I have with him.

Perhaps I'm rushing too much to grow up. I just... I've never felt this way about anyone before.

And I know he feels the same way.
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