You dont need this disease
It's one of the worst feeling I know to sit there and feel hopeless within word barriers. I felt like I was chocking. I wanted to say such a small thing but he made me feel like it was impossible to say it, and even when I tried, I was put down. I was trapped, hurt, and insecure. And with each passing second, I felt more and more insecure. Was it me? What was wrong with me? What made him just get up and walk away like that? am I that repulsive? And this whole time I just want to scream 'what the fuck was up?' but I can't really just pop that out. I knew it was too good to be true. But then again isn't it always.
Kevin came and visited me today at work. I haven't seen him since we had buffalo burgers (and you know its long because it was when I was still eating meat) mooonths ago...before I moved to the city for sure. He came with Gerhart which I haven't seen in even more months. Kevin has moved to the city just recently and now we can chill again like the old times which is pretty cool.
I am so broke right now that it funny. I need to stop acting like I have money which means I really need to stop spending. Oh well, hopefully I will get mo money soooon.
Kevin came and visited me today at work. I haven't seen him since we had buffalo burgers (and you know its long because it was when I was still eating meat) mooonths ago...before I moved to the city for sure. He came with Gerhart which I haven't seen in even more months. Kevin has moved to the city just recently and now we can chill again like the old times which is pretty cool.
I am so broke right now that it funny. I need to stop acting like I have money which means I really need to stop spending. Oh well, hopefully I will get mo money soooon.