been a while
I feel i am on the verge of something fresh , something new. i just have to shed the financial anchor that keeps me from sailing off to better waters. Its not just how i might be beginning a new career appraising houses. There is more to it. I have many things i want to change. I am starting to finally see what is so beautiful about life, but there is so much more for me to learn. i feel i have wasted much of it and still do from time to time, but its a process. A process for me to become a better person, a stronger person, a more knowledgeable person. Self-improvement is the first step that I can really work on while I am stuck in my current habitat. And when I am finally ready for a new place to call home, I will already have made adjustments already to make it all so amazing. I want to create more and I want to be more active. I will get back into my writing , and try to refuel the creativity that used to flow through me. I want to read more, and learn more. I want to work on my body. Make it strong. Eat healthier and live healthier. I need to feel accomplishments , progression. Feel i have done something that i can be proud of. I need to spend less time on the internet. I need to spend more time listening to music and staring at a notebook, like i used to for hours in my youth. Scribbling ideas, channeling my consciousness. Change is at my window, and it is up to me to open it and welcome it.