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Rosco is 6 months old today! I can't believe it . He has been such a sweetheart. He's been very well behaved for the most part and is so loving. I am blessed to have him and I believe he will grow up to be an amazing companion , as well as a protective one. This guy has a fire in him.
Having him is not without consequence however, as i have been looking for a new place to move into , and most of the great looking places i have found require no dogs. But as with most anything good, I must have patience. I have decided to move out of my current residence. I need a change of scenery and my relationship with my sister has become increasingly aggravating. There is no place around with a better deal financially than my current one. But its not about money. I just have to ensure i have enough for my real estate appraisal classes. The beginning of this new career path takes priority over moving.
I am ok with moving on from Cami as well. I love her and care for her, but something has been lost there. I still feel ok being around her though, and comfortable with her in my arms. There is just something different there now. I'd still like to see her from time to time and catch up.
I joined an online dating site. it's pretty hilarious. i doubt much will come from it, but it is entertaining. I wouldn't mind some time to just be single and be myself, but i always feel like i want to have a valentine for some damn reason. maybe its because i rarely do and it envelops my birthday. i remember last valentines day, waking up and scoring radiohead tickets for Cami and i. that was a great one, perhaps my favorite.
This week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me overall. I have been angry, sad, relieved, peaceful, happy, regretful, anxious, etc. I have lots of things going on with me right now, mostly uncomfortable ones, and i am working on finding ways of coping with those and getting myself back to a comfortable place.
I still have lots I want to work on and change with myself. i have many things to improve upon to make me feel better about myself and where i am heading. I have better direction now and I think i am heading towards a place that will make me finally feel a bit proud of myself. I think pride is a big feeling that i lack. I don't feel i have accomplished much but that will change.
Having him is not without consequence however, as i have been looking for a new place to move into , and most of the great looking places i have found require no dogs. But as with most anything good, I must have patience. I have decided to move out of my current residence. I need a change of scenery and my relationship with my sister has become increasingly aggravating. There is no place around with a better deal financially than my current one. But its not about money. I just have to ensure i have enough for my real estate appraisal classes. The beginning of this new career path takes priority over moving.
I am ok with moving on from Cami as well. I love her and care for her, but something has been lost there. I still feel ok being around her though, and comfortable with her in my arms. There is just something different there now. I'd still like to see her from time to time and catch up.
I joined an online dating site. it's pretty hilarious. i doubt much will come from it, but it is entertaining. I wouldn't mind some time to just be single and be myself, but i always feel like i want to have a valentine for some damn reason. maybe its because i rarely do and it envelops my birthday. i remember last valentines day, waking up and scoring radiohead tickets for Cami and i. that was a great one, perhaps my favorite.
This week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me overall. I have been angry, sad, relieved, peaceful, happy, regretful, anxious, etc. I have lots of things going on with me right now, mostly uncomfortable ones, and i am working on finding ways of coping with those and getting myself back to a comfortable place.
I still have lots I want to work on and change with myself. i have many things to improve upon to make me feel better about myself and where i am heading. I have better direction now and I think i am heading towards a place that will make me finally feel a bit proud of myself. I think pride is a big feeling that i lack. I don't feel i have accomplished much but that will change.