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Today i met with Cami and things went pretty good. i realize how much i miss her and love her. she means so much to me and she is so so beautiful. holding her in my arms today was the best feeling. we might have to spend some time apart to figure out what is the best for us though. i had a date scheduled with Regina but i am not ready to move on yet. i really don't want to give up on the possibility of a relationship with Cami , but i don't know how she really feels and i am unsure of how i feel at the moment too. we both have been in a lot of pain lately. I think she has an spirit watching over her and that makes me feel reassured. i want her to be happy. She said if she could she would run to the beach with me and start a life together. i'd want nothing more. Its hard for me to think of sea and sand without her. i do plan on moving to the coast once i get a career path going on. but i have to takes things one step at a time.
i watched burn after reading tonite on blu-ray. it was meh. probably my least favorite coen bros movie. a huge disappointment after the amazing picture that No Country was. it had little substance and overall was a bit depressing. Where it tried to be situationally comical it fell flat.
I have started a workout regimen. i am now going to try to do at least 50 push ups and 50 crunches a day, then once my body adjusts, move it to 100 and so forth. i am going to make my body a rock. now that i lost weight, its time to tighten it up. I'm not going to become a meathead or anything, i just feel i have room to improve physically. i want to feel strong physically and mentally.
i have decided to spend more time reading, writing and thinking in peace , rather than play video games or wasting time on the internet. I want to learn more things about the world, and get out of shell of routine actions that i have surrounded myself in. i want to be more sporadic. i have been writing ideas, goals, journal entries, thoughts, and songs in the composition book that Cami has given me. it reminds me of the poetry books i used to write in high school.
i took Rosco on three laps around the lake today. he is doing well with walking. i am working on training him to go down the slide like miles did. he almost has it down. he loves running through the tunnel and going down the little slide. He got to play with the boxer next door and some other neighbor's dog tonite. he did well, but got a little scared at one point. he needs more socialization. he needs to go to the dog park to play with more dogs or something.
One month from today and i will be 30. time for me to build something beautiful.
i watched burn after reading tonite on blu-ray. it was meh. probably my least favorite coen bros movie. a huge disappointment after the amazing picture that No Country was. it had little substance and overall was a bit depressing. Where it tried to be situationally comical it fell flat.
I have started a workout regimen. i am now going to try to do at least 50 push ups and 50 crunches a day, then once my body adjusts, move it to 100 and so forth. i am going to make my body a rock. now that i lost weight, its time to tighten it up. I'm not going to become a meathead or anything, i just feel i have room to improve physically. i want to feel strong physically and mentally.
i have decided to spend more time reading, writing and thinking in peace , rather than play video games or wasting time on the internet. I want to learn more things about the world, and get out of shell of routine actions that i have surrounded myself in. i want to be more sporadic. i have been writing ideas, goals, journal entries, thoughts, and songs in the composition book that Cami has given me. it reminds me of the poetry books i used to write in high school.
i took Rosco on three laps around the lake today. he is doing well with walking. i am working on training him to go down the slide like miles did. he almost has it down. he loves running through the tunnel and going down the little slide. He got to play with the boxer next door and some other neighbor's dog tonite. he did well, but got a little scared at one point. he needs more socialization. he needs to go to the dog park to play with more dogs or something.
One month from today and i will be 30. time for me to build something beautiful.