Aaah, headache
I haven't posted in two days, hmm, why? Because I am so frustrated and having a bad headache.
Good news first, my colleague R managed to finally run the program I was having trouble with for days now. Cookies to him. One work done, another to go.
Time to tell about my foul moods. Saturday was blah, just stayed at home, cooked, read, watched series and doing nothing productive so I wasn't in the mood of writing and blogging. Though I am amazed that so many people have read my one shot story. It got more hits than my other stories whole 5 chapters combined. I am noe thinking to continue with that story. I know the chapter was little pervy and erotic and that was it meant for. I was getting my sexual frustration out through that story. Anyways, its good that other people enjoyed it too. I will continue writing that story.
Well for yesterday, i.e. sunday was disastrous. Meeting with Y always gives me migraine and also one thing I enjoyed y'day. The fire alarm rang in the middle of the day and we all ran out and the day was so beautiful that I really enjoyed just lingering around the road doing nothing, just enjoying the moment.
For the bad stuffs, I have lots of work and talking to my family only made it worse. I just don't want to hear them whining for one day so I just made an excuse and didn't talked for too long. I am hating my father more and more because of all the antics he is pulling now a days, a bumass. My mother is also frustrated with him.
Also I started reading a new story in Fiction Press : Hello Kitty and I just love, LOVE, this story. It is so beautiful, innocent and sweet, cute and romantic story, I totally loved it. The writer has also written it very beautifully. I read it and felt so empty inside because it made me feel so empty, alone, lonely and so out of touch from anyone. I actually was frustrated and might shed a tear at night thinking how frustrated I am. I know it was pathetic, a romantic story doing that to me but I am so depressed and desperate sometimes, I can't help it.
As for today, I skimmed through the story again, reading my favourite parts and I love it more. Wish I could write something as beautiful which has some effect on people.Also did some casual work, yeah exercised too, it felt good.
I don't know why, I cannot sleep properly for days now, I don't know what is bothering me, actually too many things are bothering me right now. Hope to figure things out soon and feel good and cheery self again. This mood swings are giving me whiplash.
Want ot go home and work on my story for a while and maybe do my laundry. I need to do the laundry today, ran out of clean clothes. Also need to but new clothes, I have to shopping in Easter holidays, sadly I have no plans and no social life. My life is so damn pathetic right now.
Enough of whining and bitching, just want some ice-cream, *sigh* don't have any right now at home, need to buy ice-cream.
Good news first, my colleague R managed to finally run the program I was having trouble with for days now. Cookies to him. One work done, another to go.
Time to tell about my foul moods. Saturday was blah, just stayed at home, cooked, read, watched series and doing nothing productive so I wasn't in the mood of writing and blogging. Though I am amazed that so many people have read my one shot story. It got more hits than my other stories whole 5 chapters combined. I am noe thinking to continue with that story. I know the chapter was little pervy and erotic and that was it meant for. I was getting my sexual frustration out through that story. Anyways, its good that other people enjoyed it too. I will continue writing that story.
Well for yesterday, i.e. sunday was disastrous. Meeting with Y always gives me migraine and also one thing I enjoyed y'day. The fire alarm rang in the middle of the day and we all ran out and the day was so beautiful that I really enjoyed just lingering around the road doing nothing, just enjoying the moment.
For the bad stuffs, I have lots of work and talking to my family only made it worse. I just don't want to hear them whining for one day so I just made an excuse and didn't talked for too long. I am hating my father more and more because of all the antics he is pulling now a days, a bumass. My mother is also frustrated with him.
Also I started reading a new story in Fiction Press : Hello Kitty and I just love, LOVE, this story. It is so beautiful, innocent and sweet, cute and romantic story, I totally loved it. The writer has also written it very beautifully. I read it and felt so empty inside because it made me feel so empty, alone, lonely and so out of touch from anyone. I actually was frustrated and might shed a tear at night thinking how frustrated I am. I know it was pathetic, a romantic story doing that to me but I am so depressed and desperate sometimes, I can't help it.
As for today, I skimmed through the story again, reading my favourite parts and I love it more. Wish I could write something as beautiful which has some effect on people.Also did some casual work, yeah exercised too, it felt good.
I don't know why, I cannot sleep properly for days now, I don't know what is bothering me, actually too many things are bothering me right now. Hope to figure things out soon and feel good and cheery self again. This mood swings are giving me whiplash.
Want ot go home and work on my story for a while and maybe do my laundry. I need to do the laundry today, ran out of clean clothes. Also need to but new clothes, I have to shopping in Easter holidays, sadly I have no plans and no social life. My life is so damn pathetic right now.
Enough of whining and bitching, just want some ice-cream, *sigh* don't have any right now at home, need to buy ice-cream.