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Lost was sad, the Jack and Sarah stuff. Great, great episode, though. It reminded me how sad I felt. Ugh, this is gonna be rambly...
Hm, school. Art was cool, Health's gonna be cool 'cause we can't get our new books for a while so the rest of the week we're doing nothing, Biology was a drag and I'll explain part of the reason why it's always a drag later, English was cool... I finished my Algebra homework in class again, lunch was alright, History was fun. Becker told me and Amy that we should sit in the front of her class 'cause we always get her jokes right away and snicker. :) Silly uptight scholarly students... Aaand in Interp I can't decide what I'm gonna do concerning a new poetry piece and the fact that there are only three more tournaments to go to and it'll be difficult finding poetry next year 'cause it's always difficult, rawr.
Several things have made me very disappointed today. I'll start from the end of my day.
There's this kid, a friend of David's [the fish] and his name is Kai [he's got Asian in him XD] and he's a sweet kid I guess and ... David told me he's got this crush on me. He's got a nice body, I'll tell you that because I am a hugging whore. But he's... I won't discriminate against age, that's low, but... I dunno. I don't know him well. But eventually we'll exchange screennames or something, and then we'll talk for a bit and know each other a little, then he'll tell me, then I'll say I already knew, then I'll let him down. And I'll regret it for some reason or other later on when we drift apart again. Happens every time. Who am I kidding, of course it doesn't THAT happen often. Don't get that impression, hehe.
I dunno if I'm single or not, to add to that. I mean... I don't want anybody right now. Alright maybe I do, seeing as how every single couple stood out today at school. The more I think about it, the more I'm convinced that Jason isn't real and that Theresa is some sad freak. I just need some closure before I try and move on... and I really want to. This is no way to live. I guess I'm looking forward to being single, but not that hopeless fight to find The Right Person. I'll be single for a long while after this is settled...
Um... At lunch, I found out why David is so "bipolar." Basically his dad is a bitch to him. I was nagging and teasing him about being all emo 'cause he was quiet and I just go, "why are you so bipolar?!" Idiot. He snaps at me, but apologises, and later tells me that his dad pulled a knife on him. I already suspected, uggh... Poor kid... He's an annoying shit to most people but y'know, I still enjoy myself around him while others don't. He's just an in-your-face kid, doesn't care. Just how he is, I accept it.
Also at lunch, I was informed that this gay kid at the tournament this weekend was "hitting on" Chad. I asked about it, it was twisted. Like, Joe and Tremain went up to this kid and were like, "oh my gosh, Chad likes you!" or something, and the kid had his hopes up... and then Kelly and Paige went up to him and Kelly was like, "Oh my goodness, he's my boyfriend, he's totally not gay!" and the kid apparently got flustered and was all, "Oh... I didn't think he was gay..." That is disgusting. I cannot believe how cruel kids are without realising it. I hate it SO much. It pains me deeply.
If you don't read anything else in this entry, read this. Y'know, I guess I'm biased 'cause pft, I'm a pervert, I love gay action- but it's about tolerance, shitheads. In Biology, every other fucking word from every other kids mouth is "faggot" or "that's/you're gay/queer." I'm fucking telling you, not only is it extremely [I used to think a little bit] discriminative and ignorant, but it makes everyone sound uneducated! You know who says "gay" every other second? Fourth graders. Grow the fuck up everyone. I swear to "god," it kills me every single time I hear it. I don't wanna hear it at all from anyone around me. If you're talking to me, I don't wanna hear it. Who is anyone to use something as sexuality against someone else? It's like discriminating against people for their eye color. It disappoints me, this generation. Most people use the word without meaning it against gay people, "gay as in 'retarded'" it is still awful. I don't feel strong about anything at all- I hate politics- except tolerance. I hate hate hate hearing that shit. Bottom line- don't say it around me. I am so serious.
Why does everyone want to destroy everyone else?
I sound like a fuckin' hippie.
On a lighter and unrelated note: if my mother thinks I'm a slut, it's her fault. :P She bought me this stuff from Express- this low-cut spaghetti strap thing and this hot necklace, man... It's fun. :)
Hm, school. Art was cool, Health's gonna be cool 'cause we can't get our new books for a while so the rest of the week we're doing nothing, Biology was a drag and I'll explain part of the reason why it's always a drag later, English was cool... I finished my Algebra homework in class again, lunch was alright, History was fun. Becker told me and Amy that we should sit in the front of her class 'cause we always get her jokes right away and snicker. :) Silly uptight scholarly students... Aaand in Interp I can't decide what I'm gonna do concerning a new poetry piece and the fact that there are only three more tournaments to go to and it'll be difficult finding poetry next year 'cause it's always difficult, rawr.
Several things have made me very disappointed today. I'll start from the end of my day.
There's this kid, a friend of David's [the fish] and his name is Kai [he's got Asian in him XD] and he's a sweet kid I guess and ... David told me he's got this crush on me. He's got a nice body, I'll tell you that because I am a hugging whore. But he's... I won't discriminate against age, that's low, but... I dunno. I don't know him well. But eventually we'll exchange screennames or something, and then we'll talk for a bit and know each other a little, then he'll tell me, then I'll say I already knew, then I'll let him down. And I'll regret it for some reason or other later on when we drift apart again. Happens every time. Who am I kidding, of course it doesn't THAT happen often. Don't get that impression, hehe.
I dunno if I'm single or not, to add to that. I mean... I don't want anybody right now. Alright maybe I do, seeing as how every single couple stood out today at school. The more I think about it, the more I'm convinced that Jason isn't real and that Theresa is some sad freak. I just need some closure before I try and move on... and I really want to. This is no way to live. I guess I'm looking forward to being single, but not that hopeless fight to find The Right Person. I'll be single for a long while after this is settled...
Um... At lunch, I found out why David is so "bipolar." Basically his dad is a bitch to him. I was nagging and teasing him about being all emo 'cause he was quiet and I just go, "why are you so bipolar?!" Idiot. He snaps at me, but apologises, and later tells me that his dad pulled a knife on him. I already suspected, uggh... Poor kid... He's an annoying shit to most people but y'know, I still enjoy myself around him while others don't. He's just an in-your-face kid, doesn't care. Just how he is, I accept it.
Also at lunch, I was informed that this gay kid at the tournament this weekend was "hitting on" Chad. I asked about it, it was twisted. Like, Joe and Tremain went up to this kid and were like, "oh my gosh, Chad likes you!" or something, and the kid had his hopes up... and then Kelly and Paige went up to him and Kelly was like, "Oh my goodness, he's my boyfriend, he's totally not gay!" and the kid apparently got flustered and was all, "Oh... I didn't think he was gay..." That is disgusting. I cannot believe how cruel kids are without realising it. I hate it SO much. It pains me deeply.
If you don't read anything else in this entry, read this. Y'know, I guess I'm biased 'cause pft, I'm a pervert, I love gay action- but it's about tolerance, shitheads. In Biology, every other fucking word from every other kids mouth is "faggot" or "that's/you're gay/queer." I'm fucking telling you, not only is it extremely [I used to think a little bit] discriminative and ignorant, but it makes everyone sound uneducated! You know who says "gay" every other second? Fourth graders. Grow the fuck up everyone. I swear to "god," it kills me every single time I hear it. I don't wanna hear it at all from anyone around me. If you're talking to me, I don't wanna hear it. Who is anyone to use something as sexuality against someone else? It's like discriminating against people for their eye color. It disappoints me, this generation. Most people use the word without meaning it against gay people, "gay as in 'retarded'" it is still awful. I don't feel strong about anything at all- I hate politics- except tolerance. I hate hate hate hearing that shit. Bottom line- don't say it around me. I am so serious.
Why does everyone want to destroy everyone else?
I sound like a fuckin' hippie.
On a lighter and unrelated note: if my mother thinks I'm a slut, it's her fault. :P She bought me this stuff from Express- this low-cut spaghetti strap thing and this hot necklace, man... It's fun. :)