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Ahh, finally, finals are over! For the history final, Becker picked 14 of the 28 questions on the review to ask, everyone had different questions. The ones I got weren't bad, but I left one blank. Eek. But she said she wasn't gonna be that hard on us, so yes. And then after that, since it was my lunch period and I didn't have a ride home, I brought Jenga for me, Faith, Chad and Miles and... Richie and David and Amy Zhang to play. We only played like, two really short games and then we were just fooling around with them for an hour and a half. We were so loud, they were banging 'em together and stuff, hehe. It was lovely. And then I saw Louis, he was looking for his girlfriend and then... Oh yes, before lunch- in World History when most of the class was done, I'm lookin' around and then I catch David's glance and he points out my hair and he mouthed, "did you cut it?" I was like, yeah, and then he *giggle* waggled his eyebrows and fanned himself. He's great, I flashed a smile. XD Isn't it funny how much easier it is to flirt with someone when you no longer have a crush on them? Or when they're taken? *snort*
Oh yeah, forgot to mention- I made an 89 on my Bio final (which means I missed like 11 questions... eh... good enough) and a 100 on my English one! XD
And then... all afternoon I've been working on my macca_stills thing, did more whoring for dylan_stills, um... and yeah.
You know ... a week sure can feel like a hell of a long time... and I'm not talking about this week. For a week I didn't get to talk to Jason yesterday and I just... I dunno how I feel. *sigh* Kinda sucks. A lot.
I wasn't feeling all that great this morning so I woke up early with this in my head. It kind of really sucks, but you know, I'm no Dylan. Hehe, Bobby's right- a poem is a naked person, I feel naked right about now.
Sometimes I wish I could stop breathing
Just. Stop.
It gets painful after a while, really
Being reminded by every breath that I'm living without you
Living in
Living out
Living in
Out.
I honestly don't feel alive at all
I don't know how to feel
I don't know what
I don't want to feel this way
I don't wish to feel
-Unless it's the way I used to feel
I wish to be.
You might as well be all in my head
A calming, reassuring state of mind
A trip.
Is that all you are to me?
Isn't that all you can be?
Could someone so beautiful exist?
My body cannot host you all in my brain
But it has to, and it has
It needs you, my body
Needs yours
Are you worth it?
You must be worth the discontent
The heaviness
The will to stop breathing
Feeling drained and drowning at the same time
The terrifying fear of losing you without ever getting to have you
After all
Ironically,
Someone like you who causes someone like me such insecurity
Must be worth it.
After all
I'm a masochist.
After all
There's bliss,
There's you
Allegedly the best thing that could ever happen to me
Allegedly.
After all
I wouldn't want to waste my time-
The most important thing next to hope.
Hope, which you've resurrected within me
Hope, which is what you are
And why I wait day in
And out
And in
Out.
Siiiigh. I love him to death, still, I swear just... *sniff*
Why don't I ever learn. I found that Yoko quote I love so much: "You don't want to possess anything that is dear to you because you might lose it." Aieee.
Tomorrow I won't be online for most of the day 'cause I have to work at the school's speech tournament from 9AM to about 5. :/ I'll miss y'all, all I have to do is hall monitor the M-building. I guess I can make small talk with the people from the other schools. I think I'll bring my DVD player and watch those NDH Dylan performances in the special features that I didn't know about. 'Cause like, on both discs it has performances but they're just clips y'know, and I was like... uh... But yeah. I digress...
Alrighty, done.
Oh yeah, forgot to mention- I made an 89 on my Bio final (which means I missed like 11 questions... eh... good enough) and a 100 on my English one! XD
And then... all afternoon I've been working on my macca_stills thing, did more whoring for dylan_stills, um... and yeah.
You know ... a week sure can feel like a hell of a long time... and I'm not talking about this week. For a week I didn't get to talk to Jason yesterday and I just... I dunno how I feel. *sigh* Kinda sucks. A lot.
I wasn't feeling all that great this morning so I woke up early with this in my head. It kind of really sucks, but you know, I'm no Dylan. Hehe, Bobby's right- a poem is a naked person, I feel naked right about now.
Sometimes I wish I could stop breathing
Just. Stop.
It gets painful after a while, really
Being reminded by every breath that I'm living without you
Living in
Living out
Living in
Out.
I honestly don't feel alive at all
I don't know how to feel
I don't know what
I don't want to feel this way
I don't wish to feel
-Unless it's the way I used to feel
I wish to be.
You might as well be all in my head
A calming, reassuring state of mind
A trip.
Is that all you are to me?
Isn't that all you can be?
Could someone so beautiful exist?
My body cannot host you all in my brain
But it has to, and it has
It needs you, my body
Needs yours
Are you worth it?
You must be worth the discontent
The heaviness
The will to stop breathing
Feeling drained and drowning at the same time
The terrifying fear of losing you without ever getting to have you
After all
Ironically,
Someone like you who causes someone like me such insecurity
Must be worth it.
After all
I'm a masochist.
After all
There's bliss,
There's you
Allegedly the best thing that could ever happen to me
Allegedly.
After all
I wouldn't want to waste my time-
The most important thing next to hope.
Hope, which you've resurrected within me
Hope, which is what you are
And why I wait day in
And out
And in
Out.
Siiiigh. I love him to death, still, I swear just... *sniff*
Why don't I ever learn. I found that Yoko quote I love so much: "You don't want to possess anything that is dear to you because you might lose it." Aieee.
Tomorrow I won't be online for most of the day 'cause I have to work at the school's speech tournament from 9AM to about 5. :/ I'll miss y'all, all I have to do is hall monitor the M-building. I guess I can make small talk with the people from the other schools. I think I'll bring my DVD player and watch those NDH Dylan performances in the special features that I didn't know about. 'Cause like, on both discs it has performances but they're just clips y'know, and I was like... uh... But yeah. I digress...
Alrighty, done.