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So I guess I'm supposed to conform and write an overview of my summer in some sarcastic undertone that almost always makes people want to be friends with me.
But I'm not.
I had an eventful summer. Lots of people, places and things. I thought a lot today and yesterday. I broke up with John. Sorta. Like, I dunno. We're not going out anymore. But we're not seeing anyone else. It's a weird agreement. I thought a lot. Lucho asked me to work over winter. I said okay. I'm very motivted. I got new shoes and pants and a thing today. lol. I like it all. I'm excited for tomorrow.
And I'm happy with John. I thought about Matt today. And with Diana. I thought about it a lot. I thought a lot today. I'm happy right now. I hope to stay like this. I will always have a sad undertone, and I always will. I've been through a lot, and I think I deserve to feel however I do. But I am not a pity party. I feel so bad for myself for no reason. But I'm still here. I'm still alive. I should be proud of myself, not ashamed. I'm the normal one. God. I'm stupid. And I gotta get a new Livejournal.
So I hope to see all of you tomorrow.
Much love.
But I'm not.
I had an eventful summer. Lots of people, places and things. I thought a lot today and yesterday. I broke up with John. Sorta. Like, I dunno. We're not going out anymore. But we're not seeing anyone else. It's a weird agreement. I thought a lot. Lucho asked me to work over winter. I said okay. I'm very motivted. I got new shoes and pants and a thing today. lol. I like it all. I'm excited for tomorrow.
And I'm happy with John. I thought about Matt today. And with Diana. I thought about it a lot. I thought a lot today. I'm happy right now. I hope to stay like this. I will always have a sad undertone, and I always will. I've been through a lot, and I think I deserve to feel however I do. But I am not a pity party. I feel so bad for myself for no reason. But I'm still here. I'm still alive. I should be proud of myself, not ashamed. I'm the normal one. God. I'm stupid. And I gotta get a new Livejournal.
So I hope to see all of you tomorrow.
Much love.