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Such a funny, fickle thing. I've had friends since preschool. Bradley Foster and Katelyn Patterson. Two people who I am pretty, close to. Lauren and I have been friends for seven years, we're kinda close, too. But none of these people I can completely confide in. It's so hard to find a friend like that. I had one, once, I don't know what's going ot happen to that, though. Even Shea who I've grown so close to in the past month or so I can't bring myself to trust fully yet. So then I have this journal that I can't put all my feelings in because it's public. That's the trouble with secrets and the public. The two just don't mix together quite well.
My two 'best friends' I guess you could say are God and my written journal. It's actually my idea book from creative writing class..but I write things in it that I can't write in here. Talking to God is my main thing now. I feel so awful for coming to him only when I have something to complain about or when I have a problem. I've been working on that a lot lately. I've been busy being thankful for everything, trying to see everything in 'the good light'.
I'm so sick of friends that take advantage of me. I do a lot of forgiving (I'm working on the forgetting part) and so people think they can just walk all over me. I don't mind forgiving, it's just hurtful when people think they can do whatever they want because they know you'll just go and forgive them when they screw up. If I ever do that, I hope someone slaps me and tells me so I won't do it again. It's a horrible way to treat a friend. Shea knows exactly what I'm talking about right here. It's good to have a friend I can relate to.
My two 'best friends' I guess you could say are God and my written journal. It's actually my idea book from creative writing class..but I write things in it that I can't write in here. Talking to God is my main thing now. I feel so awful for coming to him only when I have something to complain about or when I have a problem. I've been working on that a lot lately. I've been busy being thankful for everything, trying to see everything in 'the good light'.
I'm so sick of friends that take advantage of me. I do a lot of forgiving (I'm working on the forgetting part) and so people think they can just walk all over me. I don't mind forgiving, it's just hurtful when people think they can do whatever they want because they know you'll just go and forgive them when they screw up. If I ever do that, I hope someone slaps me and tells me so I won't do it again. It's a horrible way to treat a friend. Shea knows exactly what I'm talking about right here. It's good to have a friend I can relate to.