on today
went ot lauren's house today after exams. we ran, we swam, and we went shopping. had a lot of fun needless to say.
casey called again today, asking once more where my boyfriend was and why hasn't he called me and why wasn't he spending time with me. Yea, it bothers me he doesn't call me ever and the fact that he's spending all his time with maddison now. but in our first two months he spent most all his time with me so i guess he's just making up for lost time. i can't deny the fact that i feel totally abandoned and rejected, but im sure he doesn't mean it that way. casey is convinced that he's cheating on me and that he has no right to treat me this way. he has no right to go there. he doesn't know tj and even though he's known me for four years he still doesn't know a thing about me. YES, I love attention and I need attention and YES tj isn't gving me any right now and totally ignoring me, but I refuse to sit there with casey and talk bad about him. i had to tell him off today cause he was dragging me down, trying to make me believe the worst. he's going about the wrong way to try to get me to date him. it's just not going to work. i feel so depressed right now. he's making me think a lot about this. it doesn't seem that tj thinks im worth five minutes of his time anymore....but i think we'll get past that. casey just needs to give it up.