vage uselessness
so uhhh....why do i feel like im gonna get fucked over again? can you please assure me im not only useful for one god damn thing in this world? Damn, this feeling. Damn this feeling of uselessness. Damn this feeling straight to fucking hell. And damn you if you hurt me for shits and giggles.
lonely apartment my ass.
I want to write down about how bored i am and how much i fucking hate everything 98% of the time and how I feel empty inside, but how fucking cliche and how god damn worthless. Besides I cant come up with the phrases or words that can explain the confusion and frustration going on inside my little peanut of a brain. I just want a bunch of money to make things happen already. Maybe I should start selling cocain and become filthy rich and extremely high. yeah that'll fill the void huh. I think waht i want most is to just settle down. Its hard not to feel this way when everyone in my family married around my age group. I know that will just make me happy. To just be in blissful love and have a family someday and not have to worry about anything because the one thing you care about most will come home at the end of the day and greet you with the look in his/her eye and you know that you can just be in love the rest of your life. Nothing is more comforting than knowing that there will always be that one person you count on and that one person you know loves you just as much as you love them and you can confide and trust in them with your whole entire soul. Maybe thats just too much to ask. Maybe there is no one in this world anymore that you can trust with your life because they will always have a secret life behind your back that you will never know until you read something from someone else and find out every word that comes out of their "sincire" little mouth is a complete front.
ya know what??? FUCK YOU.
Maybe I should just stick to selling cocain and getting high all the time and living in a huge house with lots of people I dont know or never have seen bc/ I'm always too fucked up outta my brain. Sounds about right.
powerwheels. swimming and pizza here I come. Another chance to fill the void. yay .::sarcasm::.
lonely apartment my ass.
I want to write down about how bored i am and how much i fucking hate everything 98% of the time and how I feel empty inside, but how fucking cliche and how god damn worthless. Besides I cant come up with the phrases or words that can explain the confusion and frustration going on inside my little peanut of a brain. I just want a bunch of money to make things happen already. Maybe I should start selling cocain and become filthy rich and extremely high. yeah that'll fill the void huh. I think waht i want most is to just settle down. Its hard not to feel this way when everyone in my family married around my age group. I know that will just make me happy. To just be in blissful love and have a family someday and not have to worry about anything because the one thing you care about most will come home at the end of the day and greet you with the look in his/her eye and you know that you can just be in love the rest of your life. Nothing is more comforting than knowing that there will always be that one person you count on and that one person you know loves you just as much as you love them and you can confide and trust in them with your whole entire soul. Maybe thats just too much to ask. Maybe there is no one in this world anymore that you can trust with your life because they will always have a secret life behind your back that you will never know until you read something from someone else and find out every word that comes out of their "sincire" little mouth is a complete front.
ya know what??? FUCK YOU.
Maybe I should just stick to selling cocain and getting high all the time and living in a huge house with lots of people I dont know or never have seen bc/ I'm always too fucked up outta my brain. Sounds about right.
powerwheels. swimming and pizza here I come. Another chance to fill the void. yay .::sarcasm::.