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once upon a time i had a boyfriend who would neither dump me, nor let me dump him it seems. i have a crazy headache and should probably be doing some homework. who the hell ever heard of assignments being due on a saturday? what the hell i ask you, what the hellllllllllllllllllll.
my mom is in jersey as i type this. that's where i should be. i think i stayed too long already, i wanted to stay maybe 6 months, im up to just about 3 years...and at this point, whats really worth it for me to stick around? (don't be offended lisa!! sheeeeez, haha) but seriously...couldn't i live the exact same life i am living here - in jersey? at least i'd be around my family, and get to hang out with my old friends more. i miss new york. i miss the crappy shopping center in my hometown. i miss familiarity. sometimes i feel like i really don't belong here...arturo says i don't either....not like it's such a differnet place, but i'm out of my element. i can't explain that so well. i know what i mean though. i dunno, i find it kind of hard to connect with a lot of people i meet here. and the ones i do, well....most of the time they just end up being weird and fading...
my mom is in jersey as i type this. that's where i should be. i think i stayed too long already, i wanted to stay maybe 6 months, im up to just about 3 years...and at this point, whats really worth it for me to stick around? (don't be offended lisa!! sheeeeez, haha) but seriously...couldn't i live the exact same life i am living here - in jersey? at least i'd be around my family, and get to hang out with my old friends more. i miss new york. i miss the crappy shopping center in my hometown. i miss familiarity. sometimes i feel like i really don't belong here...arturo says i don't either....not like it's such a differnet place, but i'm out of my element. i can't explain that so well. i know what i mean though. i dunno, i find it kind of hard to connect with a lot of people i meet here. and the ones i do, well....most of the time they just end up being weird and fading...