I touch the fire...
It's midnight, raining, a hurricane is about to tear through the area, and all I can think about is how much I want to go for a walk right now. Put on a comfy hoodie, my favorite jeans and sneakers, and walk across campus. But there is no campus, just an area of town I wouldn't walk during the daytime let alone at midnight.
It was such an awesome feeling walking campus in chilly weather in the middle of the night. I don't know why. It's one of those little things I really miss.
I turned in my two weeks at hallmark, I don't want to, but I just couldn't take it anymore, and now I'm scared shitless. I dunno where my paycheck is going to come from next...I think I'm just going to break down and tell Cinny it was a bad idea, I was just too frustrated, but I'm willing to do whatever she wants me to do. I'm not going to let myself care about that place anymore, it's a great job, I'm just letting it get to me. Cinny knows how much I love that store, today I rushed to the mall to make sure the store was ok even though I didn't have to because she was on her way.
I'm doing nothing right with my body right now, I'm taking vitamins every day which is good but I've stopped working out..which is bad. I'm going to ask Liza if she'll start working out with me, or maybe Kenia, I also want to start running with Greg. I'm going to get back into full swing and be under 200 by thanksgiving, that's a promise!! and By christmas I want to be 185ish, I can do it. I'm going spring breaking next year for sure!! I'm going to start keeping a daily log on lj so I can keep track of it, and hopefully everyone will post their support and keep me motivated, I am going to be hott and make all the bitches who rejected me jealous as hell! GRR baby YEAH!
I sat around today and I thought..if I'm losing my mind..would I know it? I feel like I am sometimes, but can you actually be aware of your mind slipping? Can you KNOW you're crazy? If you can't, could I be crazy maybe I'm just starting to figure it out? Does that mean I'm slowly becoming sane? Ugh...think about that one for a moment.
While you're thinking about that, here is a word association, when I say friend, who is the firt person that comes to your mind? Why is that? AND when is the last time you talked to that friend? When I say love, who comes to mind, have you told that person today that you love them?
I think I'm finally getting over my secret little problem. *Jenn thanks so much for being my shoulder and sounding board you rock my face off!* It was hitting me too hard and too fast and things that were totally out of my control were hurting me. I jut had to sit back and go "deep breath, you can't do anything about this, it' better this way, just move forward and don't let things like that get to you"
I'm becoming a better person, I realize that, I'm less defensive, more coperative, and just nicer to be around...and I can only think of one reason for that. *smile devilishly* but I'll never tell...
Well, I'm done dragging this on, no one ever reads this anyway, well rarely. So, I end with thi..."Thi shit is vagina's V-A-G-I-N-A-S!!"
Night all, and happy tomorrows
-Mike
"When you walk away, you don't here me say 'oh baby please.....don't go' Simple and Clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight"
It was such an awesome feeling walking campus in chilly weather in the middle of the night. I don't know why. It's one of those little things I really miss.
I turned in my two weeks at hallmark, I don't want to, but I just couldn't take it anymore, and now I'm scared shitless. I dunno where my paycheck is going to come from next...I think I'm just going to break down and tell Cinny it was a bad idea, I was just too frustrated, but I'm willing to do whatever she wants me to do. I'm not going to let myself care about that place anymore, it's a great job, I'm just letting it get to me. Cinny knows how much I love that store, today I rushed to the mall to make sure the store was ok even though I didn't have to because she was on her way.
I'm doing nothing right with my body right now, I'm taking vitamins every day which is good but I've stopped working out..which is bad. I'm going to ask Liza if she'll start working out with me, or maybe Kenia, I also want to start running with Greg. I'm going to get back into full swing and be under 200 by thanksgiving, that's a promise!! and By christmas I want to be 185ish, I can do it. I'm going spring breaking next year for sure!! I'm going to start keeping a daily log on lj so I can keep track of it, and hopefully everyone will post their support and keep me motivated, I am going to be hott and make all the bitches who rejected me jealous as hell! GRR baby YEAH!
I sat around today and I thought..if I'm losing my mind..would I know it? I feel like I am sometimes, but can you actually be aware of your mind slipping? Can you KNOW you're crazy? If you can't, could I be crazy maybe I'm just starting to figure it out? Does that mean I'm slowly becoming sane? Ugh...think about that one for a moment.
While you're thinking about that, here is a word association, when I say friend, who is the firt person that comes to your mind? Why is that? AND when is the last time you talked to that friend? When I say love, who comes to mind, have you told that person today that you love them?
I think I'm finally getting over my secret little problem. *Jenn thanks so much for being my shoulder and sounding board you rock my face off!* It was hitting me too hard and too fast and things that were totally out of my control were hurting me. I jut had to sit back and go "deep breath, you can't do anything about this, it' better this way, just move forward and don't let things like that get to you"
I'm becoming a better person, I realize that, I'm less defensive, more coperative, and just nicer to be around...and I can only think of one reason for that. *smile devilishly* but I'll never tell...
Well, I'm done dragging this on, no one ever reads this anyway, well rarely. So, I end with thi..."Thi shit is vagina's V-A-G-I-N-A-S!!"
Night all, and happy tomorrows
-Mike
"When you walk away, you don't here me say 'oh baby please.....don't go' Simple and Clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight"