He handed me a twenty, I handed him his change, he said "Have a good day.", I said "You too.",
We both knew we wouldn't.
I've built a wall around myself, so no one can get in, so I can't get hurt.Now I find my facade cracking, soon everyone will the know truth, am I a coward? I don't want to know who I am, am I weak? I keep thinking about everything I should have said, should have done. I don't want to think about you. Could you have saved me, would you still? I seek an end to this, yet withdraw from human contact, fear, am I afraid? I wish to kill these feelings, but every time I feel ready you seem to show up...I don't think I can end this. What is it I'm searching for? She hasn't visited me like she did before I met you. Should I blame you, hate you? I can't bring myself to. I know you don't, but I still want to see you, want things to be like back then. I want this to end. I want to scream, I want fight, I want blood on my hands......I want you off my mind......am I being selfish?
I've built a wall around myself, so no one can get in, so I can't get hurt.Now I find my facade cracking, soon everyone will the know truth, am I a coward? I don't want to know who I am, am I weak? I keep thinking about everything I should have said, should have done. I don't want to think about you. Could you have saved me, would you still? I seek an end to this, yet withdraw from human contact, fear, am I afraid? I wish to kill these feelings, but every time I feel ready you seem to show up...I don't think I can end this. What is it I'm searching for? She hasn't visited me like she did before I met you. Should I blame you, hate you? I can't bring myself to. I know you don't, but I still want to see you, want things to be like back then. I want this to end. I want to scream, I want fight, I want blood on my hands......I want you off my mind......am I being selfish?