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I found someone tonight that I might actually be able to talk to about my stresses at home sometimes. If she doesn't mind (Chris' mom) and don't worry, I would be over very often so Cassie and Chris, you don't have to worry about me being a bother. i was told at dinner tonight that my uptightness that I know I have in my own mind has been showing on the outside so I tried to loosen up tonight...and it was fun. I didn't want the night to end because, quite frankly I didn't want to come home. I didn't want to come home to a mom who treats me like I'm her husband. I didn't want to come home at a house where I always feel on edge. I didn't want to come home to a place where I mow a neighbor's fucking lawn, along with mine and they don't pay me for it. I didn't want to come home to a place I really no longer feel comfortable being at.....and yet I didn't want to bug anyone else either so I'm here. I almost followed Kyle home just so I could sleep and wake up somewhere else but I decided not to. Saw 'Superman Returns' today. Thought some of it was kinda hokey but other than that, it was alright.