a life of lies

[satsuki_lin]

a revilation of things was appeared to me. I guess, I guess I am weak. I guess I been lying to myself. After what some things were said to me, I actually cried. I felt the words, like a knife stab at my heart. My pride was my most prized possession. something I was proud of is now torn. Its the price I pay for such things I guess. I cried when I heard these words. It scares me the fact that it may very well be true, probably will soon. I dont know myslef now. i guess it can devistate me. I dont know now. I am more confused then ever. Funny thing is. I probably knew if it is true taht it was subconciously. I dont care anymore, why am I even online I wonder now. To think I thought for a moment things were soon to be normal again. I dont know if this online thing is worth it anymore.
Lin

Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
fuck..it..
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
im gonna tell you if you dont tell me why you hate uli or not
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
the secret I kept all this time
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
was that
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
not many people likes you at all
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
its prolly my fault..that Ness dont like you
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
she was the one that was giving me advice..and was the person..that kept me trying..to get a date with you..
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
but I dunno..
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
your difficult..
Messiah Angel Alexiel says:
she prolly thinks of you as a mean jerk now..and I know its all my fault -_-