My very first SakuMoto ficcie!
Chocolates
Author: Satoshitomi
Pairing: Sho/Jun, SakuMoto
Summary: “...I thought you would always be there by my side... but, I should’ve known better than to think so... to hope so.”
Notes: ONE SHOT. This is for the loooovely
lost_girl11 !! A belated Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and Single Awareness Day gift! (and advanced Hapy Birthday! :D)
I thought about all those times when we were small, those times when you looked up to me. I thought that it would always be like that- I thought you would always be there by my side... but, I should’ve known better than to think so... to hope so.
I looked up from the newspaper in front of me to stare at you. You sat there reading some thick book and I couldn’t help but smile when I remembered those times when you used to read those books of yours with me. I-I knew you used to look at me... followed me around even; my heart always beats fast whenever I felt your presence, but, I chose to ignore it in the end. Who would think that some cool-type Keio graduate like me actually likes... boys. No, I wouldn’t have any of it. So in every move you made I tried my best to nip it in the bud. But... there were times, when I felt your arm at my shoulder, the time when you lean on my back.... those times, I couldn’t help myself but to give in to what I’m feeling. Your warmth next to mine- it made me feel as if there really was somewhere I belonged.
But that’s all in the past now. That moment when I pushed you away- the moment that I made my pride and face more important than what I was feeling inside. I knew that we may never go back to the closeness we had before. But...
Manager-san comes in the room and tells us that we were done for the day. I watched you in the corner of my eye as you fixed your bag. I watched as you made sure nothing was forgotten but paused. I know you can feel my gaze at your back but chose to ignore it. If it were any other day I would’ve looked away in sheer embarrassment of being caught but, no... not today. I kept staring at your back, inwardly yelling at you, begging to look at me. At last, when you finished with your bag you turned around and stared at me in the eye.
“Well, um... ja ne” you said, your eyes held no emotion whatsoever and my heart gripped in a hurtful clench inside of me.
No words came out of my mouth then, I couldn’t make it work so I gave just a slight nod in your direction. You smiled a tired smile, hitched up your bag and went out the door. I sighed as I looked around the now empty room. I picked up my bag and looked over the calendar by the clock- ‘Februrary 14’. I sighed again and closed my eyes as images flickered in my mind.
“Uhh.. Happy Valentines Sho-kun” a small Jun said holding up a bag of chocolates to him. His eyes remained glued to the floor as his face was a light shade of pink.
Sho could hear the terrifying silence around him, Nino pausing his assault on Ohno’s toes as he looked up to the two, Ohno stopped laughing and was also looking while Aiba sat there just staring at them. His heart raced up as he looked at Jun who was still holding out the chocolates to him. He was torn between embarrassment and joy. Embarrassment of ’what if someone was to find out about this?’ and joy.. joy that Jun also likes him back.
He didn’t know how to react. All of his muscles seem to freeze at that moment and the deafening silence made him more tensed. Without knowing, his mouth opened and out came the words that made the face in front of him look as the saddest thing he had ever seen.
I looked down and pulled out the bag of homemade chocolates from my backpack. Every year,
I had hoped to finally give you some... every year I urged myself to finally go to you and confess.. to take back the words and the pain but...
I sighed again and put it back in my bag. Maybe... maybe next year again.
“I’m sorry Jun. I- I don’t like boys, you know...”
END.
YEY!! This is for yooooou lau-chan! <3! My first ever SakuMoto fic so pardon it's well.. quality... D: Hope u do enjoy it at least even a little bit! :D
And.. AND! I PASSED!! YEEEY!! *twirls around happilly* BANZAIIII!!!!