What to do?
How do you find the right path. When you make a choice and everything in your life starts going right is that a sign that you made the right choice? Or is it telling you that where you are is where you should be? From about July i started entertaining the idea of moving back to colorado, it seemed like the best move. However, being back in school and working hard and being ok and on my own has seemed to be excellent because of my surroundings here. If I go back will i slip back into my old ways... be trapped again in the shell of a person everyone there assumes me to be? I dont want that. But i miss my family and i miss the mountains and how beautiful it is out there. But here i have found myself to be strong and driven and i have also found someone who is everything i have ever wanted and the amazing thing is that he likes me back. Who would have ever guessed that? hahaha.
i feel great when i am with him...i feel like everything is going to be ok. That im ok. I worry about everything... i worry all the time but i realized as i was thinking today that i dont worry as much when im with him. Funny how that works out.
HERE IS MY CONCLUSION: No final decisions... i have a plan for here and a plan for colorado... i want to see how things play out; within my soul, relationships, and overall life. It is a day at a time and those choices each day will lead the way. No more tears about what might or might not be... we should focus on smiles and kisses and growing together. you allow me to be myself and you still want to lie next to me with your arms around me holding me tight. you are magnificent.
i feel great when i am with him...i feel like everything is going to be ok. That im ok. I worry about everything... i worry all the time but i realized as i was thinking today that i dont worry as much when im with him. Funny how that works out.
HERE IS MY CONCLUSION: No final decisions... i have a plan for here and a plan for colorado... i want to see how things play out; within my soul, relationships, and overall life. It is a day at a time and those choices each day will lead the way. No more tears about what might or might not be... we should focus on smiles and kisses and growing together. you allow me to be myself and you still want to lie next to me with your arms around me holding me tight. you are magnificent.