Not Another One...Not Her Too
EVERY SEMESTER! EVERY FUCKING FUCKASS SEMESTER! It's always one girl man! ONE GIRL! We just get in a huge argument and it's over! And it's always a good friend of mine! Always! Same arguments too... It's about me always having to either be right or not listening or not being accomodating and FUCK! Yea, me and Jen just got in a huge argument and she was crying and shaking and it was hysterics and she was saying''''...FUCK I CAN'T EVEN THINK! FUCK! For all my fucking grammar and prose and shit, when I let my emotions take over, I just start writing shitty...Fuck! And you know why? I don't know. It really pangs me to see her cry, to hear that they've cried, to hear the ever elusive "Why?" "Why Tony?" And all I can do is look in their eyes and try to find something! Just something! But all their is is hurt. Hurt beyond recognition. Jen said that she used to be depressed but she was fine this year and now she's saying she's getting back there and its because of me...how many girls has this happened as a result of me? And you know what...it goes back to...narcissism because I'm not changing or accomodating or sugar coating or undressing my personality for others and that's one of many major faults. That's two girls infuriated with me in a period of 3 days. Man! Can't wait to see what tommorow brings! Who am I to judge?