In Nobody's Eyes But Mine
I can't sleep and for some odd reason...I'm still thinking of...Crystal. Crystal was probably the first girl at ASU I was bedazzled by. She was in my English 101 class. Here's how the story goes. So, me, with my red collared shirt and new dark blue jean shorts, come waltzing into my class surprisingly...on time. Well, I remember that when I first started at the University, I was looking to sit down next to the hottest girl in class. And as you may have guessed, Crystal was it. Dark brown hair, straight and to her shoulder. Pouty pink mouth complete with dark eyelashes, a sandalwood complexion, sparkling brown pools for eyes and slight "Mexicana" features. She was wearing one of those mini ruffle pink skirts. You know what I'm talkin' about if you go to ASU. You know, the skirts that don't even have enough cloth for a shoelace? Anyway, she was wearing one of those with a white mid-drift that exposed her perky cleavage. She was about 5'3" with legs that could kill any man who dare glance. She was sitting in the 3rd seat in the 3rd row farthest from the door with her legs crossed and commanding every guy's gaze as she WAS in the center of the room and as soon as I walked in and scanned the room, my eyes fell and stayed upon her and she smiled. I smiled back and sat behind her. My beloved Dr. Sal would not arrive for another 5 minutes and so I waited (because yes I was nervous at some point in my life) for about 3 minutes before I made the comment, "Looks like class is over." Nervous laughter from some of the freshman around me. Crystal laughs and then replies.
"Yea and I need to go back to sleep or somethin'" she laughs again. Or somethin? Well, I could work with that I guess and so I laughed in spite of myself. "Don't we ALL need sleep?" I replied. Nodding heads all around including Crystal as she said "So what do you need sleep for huh?" she turned around with a slight grin and a glean in her eye. "I dunno...you tell me?" I smiled a devilish smile. "Too much partyin' huh?" she smiled that beautiful smile once more. "Perhaps..." I now smiled a knowing smile. She laughed some more. I think we were silent until the end of class. We were dimissed and she was in front of me.
She kept walking the opposite direction of my dorm, Manzanita and I was debating whether to further the conversation with her or not and then thought, 'Oh what the hell!' So I approached her and said I thought she had a nice skirt on, to which she blushed slightly and said thanks, although with the knowledge I have now, I'm sure she thought, 'Typical guy. He probably is talking about how much he is fantasizing me NOT in this skirt'. Or maybe that's just me. Either way, I ended up getting her number and we had a nice relationship (friends...slightly more than friends) thing going on. But then...well...hahaha...Tony...learned a few things. 1. Many girls that say they are virgins may not be virgins but they probably say that just so some guy won't think they're easy. Ah...vulnerability...smell the blood?
Let's see. Ah yes. Fast forward to one summer night when I had a phone conversation with Crystal. I was about to hit up a party and decided to call her. All I remember her saying is "Tony I have me and 8 other girls with me and we're coming to YOUR dorm right now. So you better have the alcohol ready." *sigggghhhhhhhhh*. This is what I'm thinking. 'Tony, you just basically said this girl could come up with 8 OF HER FRIENDS so she could drink some alcohol YOU DON'T HAVE and have 8 OF HER GIRLFRIENDS party with some horny dudes they don't know. Smooth. Just plain smooth.' So, eventually I meet Crystal out in the front of Manzy and I say, "Uhhhh...I don't really have alc-" Crystal interrupts me. "Tony you are such an awesome guy. I mean I love you Tony. I really do. Remember when you called me Blue Flame. I think you are my Blue Flame. You really are adorable." WELLL! What could I say to that? I mean...*siggh*. Let me rewind this.
One night I walked Crystal to her dorm. I was kinda' tipsy but not really. So anyway, I called her my blue flame. In my slurred voice I think I said "Bluuuu Flame. Crystal you're my blue flame." I don't remember m explanation but I think it went something like this. I called her my blue flame because in my chemistry class, Mr. D said that the blue on a flame was the hottest part of the flame. And I said Crystal was my blue flame because I basically thought she was hot for one and for two, I was explaining that there was a chemistry between us and what not. She understood I think and that was that. Her friend was with us too by the way but I think she just smiled and thought it was cute that some guy was calling Crystal his blue flame. Anyway, fast forward.
So after Crystal told me all that stuff, I was really fascinated with her and we could have had a good relationship but then...we come upstairs and as soon as I roll off the elevators with 9 girls well...hahahaha...
"Holy shit Tony. Where did you meet all those girls man???" "Tony those girls are so fuckin' hot!" "Dude, hook me up with that short Mexican or Arabic or whatever the fuck she is girl." "SOMEONE GET SOME FUCKIN' ALCOHOL FOR THESE BITCHES".
I mean, Crystal and her crew just took over my floor. Of course, all the girls on my floor are shooting me those "Why the fuck did you bring those ho-bags on our floor" look and I'm just thinkin', oh man I didn't EVEN INVITE ALL THESE GIRLS, all I invited was Crystal. But you know what they say. If the friend likes you, the gal will like you even more. I disagree with that philosophy and out of experience I must say but I am a fool and would think as such. So anyway, NO ONE had alcohol that night and Crystal is kinda' gettin' mad at me because apparently I promised her alcohol but I think I promised her that I would take her to a party WHERE THERE WOULD BE ALCOHOL but I never said I had it. But you know how it goes. Selective listening never saves anyone. So eventually, Shalini, a girl on my floor, actually had alcohol. She was holdin' on to it tight. Savin' it for some special occassion no one gave a shit about. I mean, you're a college student for God's sake!!! Special occassion??? Fuck THAT! Well I found that Crystal had very good negotiating skills because she convinced Shalini to give each girl 2 shots of Smirnoff. Later on, I found that Crystal had 5. Anyway, so Crystal, is kinda' tipsy now and she's hangin' onto me and keeps on repeating that she'll be my blue flame.
I'm just like, great, awesome, wonderful, blue flame...what? Then she in a bold move, plants her lips right on mine and starts makin' out with me in the middle of the hallway with about a gagillion people watchin. *siggggh* I didn't give a shit though. And I return the favor as we stand there makin' out for quite a while. Then that's when things went sour. Her arms around my neck. "Tony I want some more alcohol." That's the caught off guard moment you were looking for just in case you're playing this out like a movie in your mind. "More alcohol? Crystal...I don't even HAVE alcohol. No one except Shalini does." Crystal, slightly tipsy, slumps against the wall and is like, "Well get some." She says it in the calmest voice but...I was kinda' agitated at that point and didn't care in WHAT TONE it was said in.
"Crystal I don't have any!" She raises her slurred voice slightly louder. "Find some!" I reply with the killing statement. "God you already had some! What more you want woman?!" She paused and looked up. Shawna, one of her friends also looked up. There was that dramatic pause and then Shawna answered in one of the calmest voices I ever heard. "Crystal. I think it's time to go." Crystal just said "Yah." They all go down the hall to fetch the other 7 girls who are in, of all people's, Mason's room. Where Mason is holding up to some girl who has a disgusted look on her face and where Big P, the 6'9" football player is spittin some hard game. Fuckers. So, they all come out of the room and the girl that Mason was holding, looks at me and says "That guy is SOOOO creepy. Bye cutie" Then she leaves. Girls....haha...girls. So Crystal walks out and we pretty much didn't speak for the whole semester. Rewind.
I walked with Sara to Sahuaro. I had met her after Crystal had given me a grand tour of her room. Sara is the only NON-tipsy person out of her football going crew. I go back to her room and we chill and then she asks me to chill with her on the top bunk. So I say "Alright." She then asks me to just hold her. "Alright." She then says "You can kiss me anytime now." Huge mistake...But that's another story for another time. I feel better now. I think me telling this story has liberated a slight weight from my head. Yea...haha...this is almost like...dare I say...confession? Not really getting me anywhere but it consciously feels good to share with total strangers. *sigggghhh*. *sinks deeper in the hot tub*
"Yea and I need to go back to sleep or somethin'" she laughs again. Or somethin? Well, I could work with that I guess and so I laughed in spite of myself. "Don't we ALL need sleep?" I replied. Nodding heads all around including Crystal as she said "So what do you need sleep for huh?" she turned around with a slight grin and a glean in her eye. "I dunno...you tell me?" I smiled a devilish smile. "Too much partyin' huh?" she smiled that beautiful smile once more. "Perhaps..." I now smiled a knowing smile. She laughed some more. I think we were silent until the end of class. We were dimissed and she was in front of me.
She kept walking the opposite direction of my dorm, Manzanita and I was debating whether to further the conversation with her or not and then thought, 'Oh what the hell!' So I approached her and said I thought she had a nice skirt on, to which she blushed slightly and said thanks, although with the knowledge I have now, I'm sure she thought, 'Typical guy. He probably is talking about how much he is fantasizing me NOT in this skirt'. Or maybe that's just me. Either way, I ended up getting her number and we had a nice relationship (friends...slightly more than friends) thing going on. But then...well...hahaha...Tony...learned a few things. 1. Many girls that say they are virgins may not be virgins but they probably say that just so some guy won't think they're easy. Ah...vulnerability...smell the blood?
Let's see. Ah yes. Fast forward to one summer night when I had a phone conversation with Crystal. I was about to hit up a party and decided to call her. All I remember her saying is "Tony I have me and 8 other girls with me and we're coming to YOUR dorm right now. So you better have the alcohol ready." *sigggghhhhhhhhh*. This is what I'm thinking. 'Tony, you just basically said this girl could come up with 8 OF HER FRIENDS so she could drink some alcohol YOU DON'T HAVE and have 8 OF HER GIRLFRIENDS party with some horny dudes they don't know. Smooth. Just plain smooth.' So, eventually I meet Crystal out in the front of Manzy and I say, "Uhhhh...I don't really have alc-" Crystal interrupts me. "Tony you are such an awesome guy. I mean I love you Tony. I really do. Remember when you called me Blue Flame. I think you are my Blue Flame. You really are adorable." WELLL! What could I say to that? I mean...*siggh*. Let me rewind this.
One night I walked Crystal to her dorm. I was kinda' tipsy but not really. So anyway, I called her my blue flame. In my slurred voice I think I said "Bluuuu Flame. Crystal you're my blue flame." I don't remember m explanation but I think it went something like this. I called her my blue flame because in my chemistry class, Mr. D said that the blue on a flame was the hottest part of the flame. And I said Crystal was my blue flame because I basically thought she was hot for one and for two, I was explaining that there was a chemistry between us and what not. She understood I think and that was that. Her friend was with us too by the way but I think she just smiled and thought it was cute that some guy was calling Crystal his blue flame. Anyway, fast forward.
So after Crystal told me all that stuff, I was really fascinated with her and we could have had a good relationship but then...we come upstairs and as soon as I roll off the elevators with 9 girls well...hahahaha...
"Holy shit Tony. Where did you meet all those girls man???" "Tony those girls are so fuckin' hot!" "Dude, hook me up with that short Mexican or Arabic or whatever the fuck she is girl." "SOMEONE GET SOME FUCKIN' ALCOHOL FOR THESE BITCHES".
I mean, Crystal and her crew just took over my floor. Of course, all the girls on my floor are shooting me those "Why the fuck did you bring those ho-bags on our floor" look and I'm just thinkin', oh man I didn't EVEN INVITE ALL THESE GIRLS, all I invited was Crystal. But you know what they say. If the friend likes you, the gal will like you even more. I disagree with that philosophy and out of experience I must say but I am a fool and would think as such. So anyway, NO ONE had alcohol that night and Crystal is kinda' gettin' mad at me because apparently I promised her alcohol but I think I promised her that I would take her to a party WHERE THERE WOULD BE ALCOHOL but I never said I had it. But you know how it goes. Selective listening never saves anyone. So eventually, Shalini, a girl on my floor, actually had alcohol. She was holdin' on to it tight. Savin' it for some special occassion no one gave a shit about. I mean, you're a college student for God's sake!!! Special occassion??? Fuck THAT! Well I found that Crystal had very good negotiating skills because she convinced Shalini to give each girl 2 shots of Smirnoff. Later on, I found that Crystal had 5. Anyway, so Crystal, is kinda' tipsy now and she's hangin' onto me and keeps on repeating that she'll be my blue flame.
I'm just like, great, awesome, wonderful, blue flame...what? Then she in a bold move, plants her lips right on mine and starts makin' out with me in the middle of the hallway with about a gagillion people watchin. *siggggh* I didn't give a shit though. And I return the favor as we stand there makin' out for quite a while. Then that's when things went sour. Her arms around my neck. "Tony I want some more alcohol." That's the caught off guard moment you were looking for just in case you're playing this out like a movie in your mind. "More alcohol? Crystal...I don't even HAVE alcohol. No one except Shalini does." Crystal, slightly tipsy, slumps against the wall and is like, "Well get some." She says it in the calmest voice but...I was kinda' agitated at that point and didn't care in WHAT TONE it was said in.
"Crystal I don't have any!" She raises her slurred voice slightly louder. "Find some!" I reply with the killing statement. "God you already had some! What more you want woman?!" She paused and looked up. Shawna, one of her friends also looked up. There was that dramatic pause and then Shawna answered in one of the calmest voices I ever heard. "Crystal. I think it's time to go." Crystal just said "Yah." They all go down the hall to fetch the other 7 girls who are in, of all people's, Mason's room. Where Mason is holding up to some girl who has a disgusted look on her face and where Big P, the 6'9" football player is spittin some hard game. Fuckers. So, they all come out of the room and the girl that Mason was holding, looks at me and says "That guy is SOOOO creepy. Bye cutie" Then she leaves. Girls....haha...girls. So Crystal walks out and we pretty much didn't speak for the whole semester. Rewind.
I walked with Sara to Sahuaro. I had met her after Crystal had given me a grand tour of her room. Sara is the only NON-tipsy person out of her football going crew. I go back to her room and we chill and then she asks me to chill with her on the top bunk. So I say "Alright." She then asks me to just hold her. "Alright." She then says "You can kiss me anytime now." Huge mistake...But that's another story for another time. I feel better now. I think me telling this story has liberated a slight weight from my head. Yea...haha...this is almost like...dare I say...confession? Not really getting me anywhere but it consciously feels good to share with total strangers. *sigggghhh*. *sinks deeper in the hot tub*