I'm a bitch, in case you don't already know.
There's something that many of you know about me, that others soon come to find out.
I'm sorta mean. OK I can be really mean.
I don't mean to be, but I can get easily pissed off and annoyed, and choose to only spend my time with people I find worthwhile. I don't deal with parasitic people, I don't deal with bothersome people. That's pretty much my sole criteria for friendship. If I feel you don't fit the bill. Sorry. You're cut off. That's just how it works. Sucks, but that's how it goes.
When I get to know people, I get to know as many people as a time as I can. I am a very sociable person. But there is a specific reason I do this. I try and get in good with people all the time because I want to know what they are really like. I want them to feel comfortable around me so they show me their true face and not some front.
But then, after I do an extensive friend audit, I make some cuts. It probably seems a little cruel, but if we we're not a good match we're not a good match. Doesn't mean I hate you, doesn't mean I don't want to spend time ever with you, just that I'm not going to be fully invested in you. I know it's weird, to go from me spending tons of time with someone, really taking time to listen to them and get to know them only to be like: Nope. Thanks but no thanks. But life is too short and I am too young to put up with nonsense. That's that. And anyone who has approached me about why I've stopped hanging with them/talking to them I've always been upfront. I know it's kinda bewildering, to feel like someone is a good friend only to have them drop you, but you can always be up for a reevaluation. I've had this happen before, where people realize I stopped hanging out with them, asked why, I told them and they changed, and we became friends again.
The point of this rant? Well recently I made some cuts. None of these people are on livejournal, so technically I could say some names, but I won't. Right now there are three specifically in mind. All three are wonderful people, but their personalities just kinda blow.
Cut 1: I love you, I really do. But you're boring. You invite me out and make it seem like you're having fun, but then I show up and you're glued to the tv. Seriously, there's life outside television. You should get outside. Really, you could use the exercise. Also, your lack of social consciousness disturbs me. I know you're all into gay rights and in theory environmentalism (not in practice), but you are so materialistic and privileged. You have the tastes of a teenage Connecticut mallrat. Look I don't wanna talk about the latest episode of Gossip Girls. That shit's stupid. Sorry. I'm just not into that shit and I don't wanna hear about it.
Cut 2: Please please please, for your sake and your friends, gain some self-control and self-respect. No one really wants to hang out with you anymore because everytime you get drunk you are such an utter embarrassment. Know when to put down a drink, turn away some blow, maybe even stop hooking up with everyone you see. Also, the valleygirl accent is driving me mad. You are so rich and privileged and lazy. You think life's you're oyster. It's not. This is not LA. It's New York. People here have more depth, so should you. And for the love of god PLEASE STOP SINGING. YOUR VOICE IS AWWWFUUULLLL. Jesus Christ last time I almost tore out your throatbox.
Cut 3: Shut up. Just shut up. PLEASE. You are so utterly negative about everything I could punch you in the face. Yea yea I know there are plenty of thing about life that suck, but come on. Yes yes yes we know you have 3 jobs. You know how? YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT THEM EVERY FUCKING DAY. We know you're tired, we know you don't like the noise, we know you're scared of the surrounding ethnic food places (read: ethnic people). You've told us a million times. Why can't you just be like the rest of us and drink/smoke away your troubles? Furthermore, your stories suck. You know what everyone started calling really fucking boring stories? "P---- stories", yes, named after you. And stop trying to guilt/nag people into doing what you want to do. Yea so some of us don't want to leave yet. Either go home yourself or wait for us. You think that "Fine! I'll just go home alone and get raped!" BS is going to work on me? Cuz it doesn't. Grow up. It's like you expect the world to be all full of unicorns and cupcakes but are angry because it's not.
This is a huge friend group, I have a feeling a few more cuts are coming, but this is all for now.