*swoons*
I have a song and stuff. Well, we have a song. Of course”we" is a very vague explanation, as it is meant to be. So as of now your going to have to deal because im difficult, more so this moment that usual, so bear with me as I drag you through the midst of my stubborn self.
So, I’ve been kind of slacking with the photography and it really is disappointing. I have all these things I wish to achieve, but am unable to do so while in this "current situation". ..Once again with the vagueness... The current situation I refer to is one of many current situations that have had my mind in an up-roar. I don’t think I’ve ever been so lethargic in my entire life. At least not for such a long span of time. I’m trying to look forward as it seams it is only then that i feel hope. My future before was something that could only be accomplish with an array of streets and paths to follow and mark if i where ever to be something of any great consequence. Though, most people find themselves doing the same thing, it scares me. I have been terrified of becoming just another space monkey. They train you, you pull a lever, push a button, you don’t understand any of it, and then you die. I see most people become this, even some of my friends who went into the "business world" only months ago. I can see it happening ever so slightly. It’s terrifying. Though, I know I can’t just sit here and peak out at the world because im scared. Mind you, I don’t plan to do that. I have a future that I really do for once in a long time am honestly looking forward to. It will take a lot of work but im willing to work and so much more to achieve what needs to happen to get where I want to go. ...im being o so vague again I know... but the truth is, if you know me you know what all this vague non sense is about.
I just have to keep my pessimisms on the outer bounds.
My negativity is not welcome.
So, I’ve been kind of slacking with the photography and it really is disappointing. I have all these things I wish to achieve, but am unable to do so while in this "current situation". ..Once again with the vagueness... The current situation I refer to is one of many current situations that have had my mind in an up-roar. I don’t think I’ve ever been so lethargic in my entire life. At least not for such a long span of time. I’m trying to look forward as it seams it is only then that i feel hope. My future before was something that could only be accomplish with an array of streets and paths to follow and mark if i where ever to be something of any great consequence. Though, most people find themselves doing the same thing, it scares me. I have been terrified of becoming just another space monkey. They train you, you pull a lever, push a button, you don’t understand any of it, and then you die. I see most people become this, even some of my friends who went into the "business world" only months ago. I can see it happening ever so slightly. It’s terrifying. Though, I know I can’t just sit here and peak out at the world because im scared. Mind you, I don’t plan to do that. I have a future that I really do for once in a long time am honestly looking forward to. It will take a lot of work but im willing to work and so much more to achieve what needs to happen to get where I want to go. ...im being o so vague again I know... but the truth is, if you know me you know what all this vague non sense is about.
I just have to keep my pessimisms on the outer bounds.
My negativity is not welcome.