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what can I say, I'm feeling contemplative... it's over, well it will be over in 17 days. I'm feeling in some ways relay sad. These four years have been amazing! to spite all my complaining about the CI, and business office, and bullshit classes, and stupid drama. I am changed forever by this place and the people in it. and I'm worried that a lot of the people I really love I'm not going to keep in touch with, I'm always scared of being forgotten, and so that’s nothing new. but my heart is breaking a little know how much I'm going to miss some really great people. I mean it's easy cause Colleen and Adam are coming with me, so that parts not scary, I know they will be my friends forever. But people that I've done shows with and people who live down the hall that I'm not going to see for sure... maybe ever again. and that makes me really sad to think about. I really want to come back to see shows, especially Into The Woods, I'm so excited that they're doing it, I think it will be perfect. I'm in love with my department, I've always loved Jen but this year I realized just how hilarious Brian is, and well Gil is just the greatest thing since sliced bread. I'm going to miss them a lot, they are three of the most talented and brilliant people I've ever known in my field, and it makes me sad to think they wont be in my life anymore. I'm also really excited for what's to come, I have this picture in my head of Colleen Adam and I in our place, and it's keeping me sane. This summer is going to be crazy and hard, but that image will keep me going, cause I don't think I'd be able to handle the whole moving back home thing if I didn't know it was temporary. Mostly I'm really conflicted, I'm happy and sort of freaked out about being the 1st in my family to graduate, it just hit me what a big deal that is. I'm sad cause I'm going to miss so much, and I'm really excited about just being on my own... I'm just all full of this stuff and I feel like I'm boiling over, like there is all this emotion in me and it keeps spilling out.