my testimony...
this is my testimony:
I was living a sinful life. I was young, but I was already headed down the road to hell. I started hanging out with the wrong kids. My parents were Christians, but I didnt really care. I didnt go to church with them. I had been dating my sons father Kyle for two years (so young I know) and I thought I loved him. I started to feel like an adult and things started going to far and we had sex. We had sex a couple more times then I realised that I could be pregnant. I didnt tell my mom until after I told Kyle and took a pregnancy test. When I told her she freaked out. She told my dad immediately then they forbid me to see Kyle. One day I finally called him while both of my parents were out of the house and my sister was outside. He said he didnt want anything to do with a fat whore like me. That hurt so much. When people at school found out they began to avoid me. My grandparents were so ashamed of me that they wouldnt have anything to do with me either. They told me to put him up for adoption. The only person in the world that I thought cared about me was my aunt who lived in India. She was not married when she had her first child although she was older than me. I felt there was no one to turn to. I had my beautiful son, Cillian, then I began to get really bad panic attacks and I suffered from slight depression. Kyle then decided he wanted to see our son. This made me nervous because I didnt want him to take him away from me (he was the only person I thought loved me) and I knew I couldnt live without him. I also didnt like his habits and I didnt want Cillian to see him that way. Ofcourse every young mother who is left by her boyfriend secretly wishes that he would take her back and they could be a family. I allowed him to see him because I felt like maybe it would make us closer (putting myself first). One night Kyle was over visiting with Cillian and after Cillian fell asleep we sat there and talked. He told me he loved me and that he wanted to be with me again and we had sex again (sry bout all the details). Then he spread it around school and I was once again the school slut. All the guys who wanted sex would hang around with me and stuff. The guys I dated expected me to have sex with them and I did because I wanted exceptence and I didnt have very many friends anymore. I got pregnant again when I was 15 then I had a miscarriage. I got so depressed then, but I didnt know what to do. I considered suicide once and then second I did I hated myself and I will never forgive myself for this thought because I could never do that to my son. I stopped allowing guys to do that to me. I started to believe all the crappy stuff people were saying about me. I started trying to make new friends. I became really good friends with a girl named Raegan Kitchens. One night she asked me to go to church with her. I did. I liked it. She started talking to me about God and I was open to anyone who could make everything better. I began to realize that God was amazing and I dedicated my life to him and now I believe that Jesus Christ is my savior. Since then God has been working in my life. My mom, after the shock, began to see that I wasnt evil and we made up, but my father and I didnt. Then recently we did. I took Cillian to my grandparents' house and then we talked for a long time and now my life is getting better. I did get back with one of my bestfriends who left me when she found out I was pregnant. Kyle is still a problem though. I hope that this all gets settled.
Adrianne May Jensen
I was living a sinful life. I was young, but I was already headed down the road to hell. I started hanging out with the wrong kids. My parents were Christians, but I didnt really care. I didnt go to church with them. I had been dating my sons father Kyle for two years (so young I know) and I thought I loved him. I started to feel like an adult and things started going to far and we had sex. We had sex a couple more times then I realised that I could be pregnant. I didnt tell my mom until after I told Kyle and took a pregnancy test. When I told her she freaked out. She told my dad immediately then they forbid me to see Kyle. One day I finally called him while both of my parents were out of the house and my sister was outside. He said he didnt want anything to do with a fat whore like me. That hurt so much. When people at school found out they began to avoid me. My grandparents were so ashamed of me that they wouldnt have anything to do with me either. They told me to put him up for adoption. The only person in the world that I thought cared about me was my aunt who lived in India. She was not married when she had her first child although she was older than me. I felt there was no one to turn to. I had my beautiful son, Cillian, then I began to get really bad panic attacks and I suffered from slight depression. Kyle then decided he wanted to see our son. This made me nervous because I didnt want him to take him away from me (he was the only person I thought loved me) and I knew I couldnt live without him. I also didnt like his habits and I didnt want Cillian to see him that way. Ofcourse every young mother who is left by her boyfriend secretly wishes that he would take her back and they could be a family. I allowed him to see him because I felt like maybe it would make us closer (putting myself first). One night Kyle was over visiting with Cillian and after Cillian fell asleep we sat there and talked. He told me he loved me and that he wanted to be with me again and we had sex again (sry bout all the details). Then he spread it around school and I was once again the school slut. All the guys who wanted sex would hang around with me and stuff. The guys I dated expected me to have sex with them and I did because I wanted exceptence and I didnt have very many friends anymore. I got pregnant again when I was 15 then I had a miscarriage. I got so depressed then, but I didnt know what to do. I considered suicide once and then second I did I hated myself and I will never forgive myself for this thought because I could never do that to my son. I stopped allowing guys to do that to me. I started to believe all the crappy stuff people were saying about me. I started trying to make new friends. I became really good friends with a girl named Raegan Kitchens. One night she asked me to go to church with her. I did. I liked it. She started talking to me about God and I was open to anyone who could make everything better. I began to realize that God was amazing and I dedicated my life to him and now I believe that Jesus Christ is my savior. Since then God has been working in my life. My mom, after the shock, began to see that I wasnt evil and we made up, but my father and I didnt. Then recently we did. I took Cillian to my grandparents' house and then we talked for a long time and now my life is getting better. I did get back with one of my bestfriends who left me when she found out I was pregnant. Kyle is still a problem though. I hope that this all gets settled.
Adrianne May Jensen