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Dbs out. its my alone time.
its cliche. but i still have heaps of ironing to do. his uniform.
and the newly bought dresses and shoes and bags have yet to find their places in the room.
it has been weeks since i got myself married. and i have never been happier.
he said its the honeymoon period. i say, if i hear that description again, you have to sleep on the floor.
it should be honeymoon forever. fa insyaAllah.
i had just received a text. hes at ustazs now.
which reminded me how ugly it was, when i tugged at his feet to stop him from going ngaji, pretending to have runny nose, which i really am suffering from, now. but he said "ill be back before you even know it:" yeah.
now that i am here.
i am less worried about others. whether or not, they wld be around me, anymore.
whether or not, we will be the best of friends anymore.
whether or not, we will be the closest friends of all.
whether or not, i am left out, or i am inlcuded.
whether i am gossiped about, whether i am misunderstood.
whether the smile and jokes are real.
whether the hi and bye are real.
whether the conversations are genuine.
i find myself, not wanting to know if they are for real.
because, they appear unreal to me.
because, they appear insincere to me.
but again, Db said, i cant expect perfection.
Now, you decide, was the friendship based on genuine feelings for each other.
or was it something achieved, just to have it replaced in a blink of an eye.
Now, you decide, with your absence, it had changed things, do you still want to fight for something thats not meant to be.
So baby, the best way is, Let Them Go.
So baby, the best way is, Let It Go.
And so. eversince i heeded the advice. i became calmer.
i knew what i wanted.
and i knew what truly made me happy.
words mean nothing to me, now.
And so, i take my leave.
Tho my heart beats faster, whenever i see, whenever i read, whenever i hear..
I have learnt to let go.
And to the man who had held me in your arms,
i thank Allah. for you.
i thank Allah, for the happines you have brought into my life.
i thnk Allah, for what you have taught me.
Because of you, i had learnt to love myself.
its cliche. but i still have heaps of ironing to do. his uniform.
and the newly bought dresses and shoes and bags have yet to find their places in the room.
it has been weeks since i got myself married. and i have never been happier.
he said its the honeymoon period. i say, if i hear that description again, you have to sleep on the floor.
it should be honeymoon forever. fa insyaAllah.
i had just received a text. hes at ustazs now.
which reminded me how ugly it was, when i tugged at his feet to stop him from going ngaji, pretending to have runny nose, which i really am suffering from, now. but he said "ill be back before you even know it:" yeah.
now that i am here.
i am less worried about others. whether or not, they wld be around me, anymore.
whether or not, we will be the best of friends anymore.
whether or not, we will be the closest friends of all.
whether or not, i am left out, or i am inlcuded.
whether i am gossiped about, whether i am misunderstood.
whether the smile and jokes are real.
whether the hi and bye are real.
whether the conversations are genuine.
i find myself, not wanting to know if they are for real.
because, they appear unreal to me.
because, they appear insincere to me.
but again, Db said, i cant expect perfection.
Now, you decide, was the friendship based on genuine feelings for each other.
or was it something achieved, just to have it replaced in a blink of an eye.
Now, you decide, with your absence, it had changed things, do you still want to fight for something thats not meant to be.
So baby, the best way is, Let Them Go.
So baby, the best way is, Let It Go.
And so. eversince i heeded the advice. i became calmer.
i knew what i wanted.
and i knew what truly made me happy.
words mean nothing to me, now.
And so, i take my leave.
Tho my heart beats faster, whenever i see, whenever i read, whenever i hear..
I have learnt to let go.
And to the man who had held me in your arms,
i thank Allah. for you.
i thank Allah, for the happines you have brought into my life.
i thnk Allah, for what you have taught me.
Because of you, i had learnt to love myself.