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alright.
i am pissed
it's 2:24 in the morning and i've gotten another email from amanda. the last i had heard from the ex was on the 8th. she had sent an email asking if she had said something to upset me. i sent one back saying no i'm just bad about returning emails. then she sends me some other email griping about her day. i did not respond to this email because i dont really care
now i get this email on the 11th:
Well the emails sure were theraputic on my end. I actually wrote a really long letter after you hadn't written me back for a good five days, that one being the most theraputic of them all. It was entitled, "Everything I Always Wanted to Tell Jeremy but Could Never be that Brutally Honest". It pretty much contained things that, had I been you, would have just come out on a regular basis. It also helped me remember how we got here. I had really blamed myself for just walking out. Writing that letter (that I intend to never send) made me realize that it wasn't anything that happened at the end. It was a build up for both parties.
I had felt really shitty because you didn't take time to write me back. I work 60 hours a week, and I managed. That was what made me realize that some things don't change. I was constantly catering, and you were doing your own thing. And that is completely okay - there will be someone out there for you that doesn't get bothered by that. I just wasn't that girl, nor am I now.
I think I just really got reminiscent. Maybe that is just what it took to really get me over you. I was really missing you - really really missing you. There was a part on a movie I once watched where a lady loved this guy who she had once dated for years. They were now best friends and he was getting married. Although she hated it, she realized "things were exactly as they should be". Sometimes it's a tough pill to swallow, but things have a way of working out for the best.
The dreams have stopped. I'm not checking my email a million times a day (other than for work). I just can't be disappointed anymore.
I'm not saying these things to be mean or angry. I hope this doesn't come out wrong like the Lexington comment. I just want you to know that I understand and appreciate our relationship now, better than I ever did before. If you are not taking this in a bad way (which I really pray that you are not), I really would like to hear from you sometime - on your own accord. I'm sorry if I scared you with my reply or sounded mean with this email. Take it easy and don't let school and being busy get the best of ya!
Your friend always,
Amanda
wtf
she has closure now. so freaking what? i figure the person that LEAVES THE RELATIONSHIP having closure is a damn given. I'm sure that the "email that she never intends to send" will get sent sometime in the very near future, which will be posted on here for your viewing pleasure of course
i just love how these stupid things get comparison to our entire relationship. first the cantaloupe thing that she symbolized to our entire relationship, then the "oh my God i didnt get an email for THREE DAYS" symbolism? good f'ing grief.
all i want to know is how we put up with each other for as long as we did.
what a silly drama queen
well, time to respond. maybe i'll put that on here too
sigh
-jeremy
"the worst human being alive"
i am pissed
it's 2:24 in the morning and i've gotten another email from amanda. the last i had heard from the ex was on the 8th. she had sent an email asking if she had said something to upset me. i sent one back saying no i'm just bad about returning emails. then she sends me some other email griping about her day. i did not respond to this email because i dont really care
now i get this email on the 11th:
Well the emails sure were theraputic on my end. I actually wrote a really long letter after you hadn't written me back for a good five days, that one being the most theraputic of them all. It was entitled, "Everything I Always Wanted to Tell Jeremy but Could Never be that Brutally Honest". It pretty much contained things that, had I been you, would have just come out on a regular basis. It also helped me remember how we got here. I had really blamed myself for just walking out. Writing that letter (that I intend to never send) made me realize that it wasn't anything that happened at the end. It was a build up for both parties.
I had felt really shitty because you didn't take time to write me back. I work 60 hours a week, and I managed. That was what made me realize that some things don't change. I was constantly catering, and you were doing your own thing. And that is completely okay - there will be someone out there for you that doesn't get bothered by that. I just wasn't that girl, nor am I now.
I think I just really got reminiscent. Maybe that is just what it took to really get me over you. I was really missing you - really really missing you. There was a part on a movie I once watched where a lady loved this guy who she had once dated for years. They were now best friends and he was getting married. Although she hated it, she realized "things were exactly as they should be". Sometimes it's a tough pill to swallow, but things have a way of working out for the best.
The dreams have stopped. I'm not checking my email a million times a day (other than for work). I just can't be disappointed anymore.
I'm not saying these things to be mean or angry. I hope this doesn't come out wrong like the Lexington comment. I just want you to know that I understand and appreciate our relationship now, better than I ever did before. If you are not taking this in a bad way (which I really pray that you are not), I really would like to hear from you sometime - on your own accord. I'm sorry if I scared you with my reply or sounded mean with this email. Take it easy and don't let school and being busy get the best of ya!
Your friend always,
Amanda
wtf
she has closure now. so freaking what? i figure the person that LEAVES THE RELATIONSHIP having closure is a damn given. I'm sure that the "email that she never intends to send" will get sent sometime in the very near future, which will be posted on here for your viewing pleasure of course
i just love how these stupid things get comparison to our entire relationship. first the cantaloupe thing that she symbolized to our entire relationship, then the "oh my God i didnt get an email for THREE DAYS" symbolism? good f'ing grief.
all i want to know is how we put up with each other for as long as we did.
what a silly drama queen
well, time to respond. maybe i'll put that on here too
sigh
-jeremy
"the worst human being alive"