All work and no play...
Hey hey guys and dolls! How y'all coping now that winter is over and spring is starting to make it's presence felt? Personally I'll feel infinitely happier when the rain stops and the cool breeze blows across the sunny skies. Not that I'm a sunny gal mind it's just that I prefer warm and dry to cold and damp. Then again who doesn't?!
I know that it has been a couple of months since my last journal entry but I've been busy on a number of levels. Hospital has eaten up the majority of my time with job hunting, book reading and a shit-load of writing taking what has been left over. Stupidly (or not depending on your point of view) while I was working on a newish chapter of my tome I had an idea pop into my brain that wasn't going to work within the current story. Not wanting to abandon it, as I felt it had some real potential, an entirely new story started to unfurl within the creative part of my mind. Now here's the problem that I have, and it's not a new one as you're about to find out for yourselves...
The old writers' adage is to write what you know. Well I may not know much about anything but I know what I enjoy and in my top five things that I enjoy list is sex. No surprise there eh?! Now I have always had an extremely active imagination and when you are single for a prolonged period of time an active imagination can be a real life saver. Couple that (if you will pardon the pun) with my passion for writing and you have a hobby that I am not only completely devoted to but one which consumes a great deal of my time and thought processes. Indeed I can not begin to describe the number of times I have gone to bed after pulling an all nighter and found myself unable to stop thinking about a particular chapter or character development etc. It has even got so bad on occasion that I have dreamed about my story. So where's the problem you might be thinking? I'll tell you.
Sometimes the lines between nighttime fantsy escapism (or in the vernacular masturbation material) and situational story ideas can blur so much it is impossible to tell where one ends and the other begins. A few months ago I had a very intense dream, one that would never occur in the real world, and yet it spawned an idea that refused to leave my mind no matter what I did. Before you ask, yes, it is still buzzing in my noodle now but that isn't relevant here. Some fantasies can be complete in every graphic detail: full HD colour, 5.1 surround sound, sensory input, the works! Others however can have brilliant starts but as you reach the vital moment it grinds to a halt. Think some of J.D.'s best Scrubs moments and you'll know exactly what I'm talking about! It's an uncertain practice and one that you don't have full control over as there is a great deal of the unconscious mind involved.
When I start putting my feeble ability as a wordsmith into use I can write sex scenes until the cows come home. I have no inhibitions about using crude terminology when and where appropraite and I can write a whole scene from start to finish with relative ease. There are of course the inevitable holdups, usually when something that I have just written has had a very physical effect and requires that I take a "personal break" before I can continue with my crafting. Those are minor however and I do try to remain as professional as possible and not let them interfere with the creative process.
As you can probably see these two methods contrast with one another which is problematic when you try to take a half-baked fantasy (one that has a beginning and an end but for whatever reason could not conjure up the juicy middle you wanted) and turn it into a full scene, a cohesive part of the storyline, in full and glorious detail. The two seem destined to remain forever incompatible, a frustrating thing to deal with as it can turn a delectable diversion into obsession driven work. Believe me when that happens it can suck all of the pleasure out of a titillating thought that once lulled you into blissful slumber.
Okie dokie folks that's me done for the night. My brain's buzzing like it has a hive of killer bees inside of it except the bees are actually ideas, but that doesn't make them any less dangerous. I'm going to distract myself with some anime, music and quite possibly some Anne Rice while I'm at it. Be good kids and don't forget... it doesn't hurt to indluge your temptations every once in a while, just remember not to overdo it. Laters munchkins!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
I know that it has been a couple of months since my last journal entry but I've been busy on a number of levels. Hospital has eaten up the majority of my time with job hunting, book reading and a shit-load of writing taking what has been left over. Stupidly (or not depending on your point of view) while I was working on a newish chapter of my tome I had an idea pop into my brain that wasn't going to work within the current story. Not wanting to abandon it, as I felt it had some real potential, an entirely new story started to unfurl within the creative part of my mind. Now here's the problem that I have, and it's not a new one as you're about to find out for yourselves...
The old writers' adage is to write what you know. Well I may not know much about anything but I know what I enjoy and in my top five things that I enjoy list is sex. No surprise there eh?! Now I have always had an extremely active imagination and when you are single for a prolonged period of time an active imagination can be a real life saver. Couple that (if you will pardon the pun) with my passion for writing and you have a hobby that I am not only completely devoted to but one which consumes a great deal of my time and thought processes. Indeed I can not begin to describe the number of times I have gone to bed after pulling an all nighter and found myself unable to stop thinking about a particular chapter or character development etc. It has even got so bad on occasion that I have dreamed about my story. So where's the problem you might be thinking? I'll tell you.
Sometimes the lines between nighttime fantsy escapism (or in the vernacular masturbation material) and situational story ideas can blur so much it is impossible to tell where one ends and the other begins. A few months ago I had a very intense dream, one that would never occur in the real world, and yet it spawned an idea that refused to leave my mind no matter what I did. Before you ask, yes, it is still buzzing in my noodle now but that isn't relevant here. Some fantasies can be complete in every graphic detail: full HD colour, 5.1 surround sound, sensory input, the works! Others however can have brilliant starts but as you reach the vital moment it grinds to a halt. Think some of J.D.'s best Scrubs moments and you'll know exactly what I'm talking about! It's an uncertain practice and one that you don't have full control over as there is a great deal of the unconscious mind involved.
When I start putting my feeble ability as a wordsmith into use I can write sex scenes until the cows come home. I have no inhibitions about using crude terminology when and where appropraite and I can write a whole scene from start to finish with relative ease. There are of course the inevitable holdups, usually when something that I have just written has had a very physical effect and requires that I take a "personal break" before I can continue with my crafting. Those are minor however and I do try to remain as professional as possible and not let them interfere with the creative process.
As you can probably see these two methods contrast with one another which is problematic when you try to take a half-baked fantasy (one that has a beginning and an end but for whatever reason could not conjure up the juicy middle you wanted) and turn it into a full scene, a cohesive part of the storyline, in full and glorious detail. The two seem destined to remain forever incompatible, a frustrating thing to deal with as it can turn a delectable diversion into obsession driven work. Believe me when that happens it can suck all of the pleasure out of a titillating thought that once lulled you into blissful slumber.
Okie dokie folks that's me done for the night. My brain's buzzing like it has a hive of killer bees inside of it except the bees are actually ideas, but that doesn't make them any less dangerous. I'm going to distract myself with some anime, music and quite possibly some Anne Rice while I'm at it. Be good kids and don't forget... it doesn't hurt to indluge your temptations every once in a while, just remember not to overdo it. Laters munchkins!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox