I hate my(everything)...
Well the other day I decided to kill off a few of my morals.
---I'll share with you:
I decided to have fun when I want to, to full extent. I used to limit my fun by making myself not want to continue doing it. I KILLED MY FUN LIMIT(hopefully).
I decided to be happy by any means possible. That is different because Im used to dwelling on my problems until they become so augmented that they take over all my thoughts. I KILLED MY THOUGHT PROCESS(hopefully).
I decided to do anything/everything my way. I am used to being kind of guided when I am diong something that is overwhelming. I KILLED MY DEPENDANT NEEDS.(hopefully).
I decided to live my life as I see fit. I am used to thinking "what will this cause ______". So I KILLED MY CONSIENCE(hopefully). But I will still use it.
And my last one, I decided to stop procrastinating. I always put the 'big' stuff off(like driving). So I KILLED PROCRASTINATION(hopefully).
This is a transitive process but I am hoping to actually cause something good to happen to me. I am sick of my life, so you fuckers better support me. You may have noticed my 'happiness' lately, so thats proof Im actually doing this. I hope it works.
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Now for the other part.....
This chic that likes me said she loves me, which is cool because I love to be loved, but i dont love her. I am having one of those regretful feelings. I hate to be lied to myself, or to be held in the dark. But I dont want to hurt her feelings by telling her that I dont love her. She is very cool and everything but it just really sux ass. But if she really loves me, shell be okay with my unsure feelings and wait for my mind to be made up, right? I hope. I dont know,
Later All (tell me if you read this, put atleast hey)
Matt
---I'll share with you:
I decided to have fun when I want to, to full extent. I used to limit my fun by making myself not want to continue doing it. I KILLED MY FUN LIMIT(hopefully).
I decided to be happy by any means possible. That is different because Im used to dwelling on my problems until they become so augmented that they take over all my thoughts. I KILLED MY THOUGHT PROCESS(hopefully).
I decided to do anything/everything my way. I am used to being kind of guided when I am diong something that is overwhelming. I KILLED MY DEPENDANT NEEDS.(hopefully).
I decided to live my life as I see fit. I am used to thinking "what will this cause ______". So I KILLED MY CONSIENCE(hopefully). But I will still use it.
And my last one, I decided to stop procrastinating. I always put the 'big' stuff off(like driving). So I KILLED PROCRASTINATION(hopefully).
This is a transitive process but I am hoping to actually cause something good to happen to me. I am sick of my life, so you fuckers better support me. You may have noticed my 'happiness' lately, so thats proof Im actually doing this. I hope it works.
_____________________________________________________________________________________________
Now for the other part.....
This chic that likes me said she loves me, which is cool because I love to be loved, but i dont love her. I am having one of those regretful feelings. I hate to be lied to myself, or to be held in the dark. But I dont want to hurt her feelings by telling her that I dont love her. She is very cool and everything but it just really sux ass. But if she really loves me, shell be okay with my unsure feelings and wait for my mind to be made up, right? I hope. I dont know,
Later All (tell me if you read this, put atleast hey)
Matt