unstable as allways.

[satansboyfriend]

i've ben doing a lot of bouncing around in the past couple of weeks. I'm so glad I've still got so many old friends down here. that's why I came back to the coast. It seemed to me that this would be the only place I'd have half of a fighting chance to make it on my own. I'm glad I've got so many old friends here. These people are what keeps me alive. I've found a place I can stay for another 2 weeks. I paid 2 weeks rent with my last paycheck from sonic. If I'm able to find a job while I'm staying here, I can stay for as long as I can pay rent. I'm currently updating from circut city, so don't think that I have internet access, cuz I don't. It's gonna take a lot for me to get a job anywhere near where I'm staying, but I'm gonna bust my ass to try to make it happen. I'm not a mothafuckin bumb, and it's killing me to be jobless and cyphening off of other people, and nobody is able to make me feel more guilty about it than Crystal. I owe here 15 bucks. I still have it too. tucked away in my wallet. I dare not spend it.
I love and miss Gen, and sara verry much. It's gonna be so hard to keep a functional friendship with them from this far away. Once I get a car mabey I can make these things happen a little easier. that's gonna be quite some time though.

well, i must be back off to the jobsearch.