No I don't think that you have to attend to me when I come home. However, when you tell me before hand that we will be doing something and act very excited that we will be doing something and then you just blow me off like that, no, I don't appreciate it. Another thing, leave Jesse out of this. This is not about him. This is about you and me. I have never met the guy, I don't know him so Im not going to bother to say anything about him, none of this is his fault. I don't even understand your last statement. Are you trying to say "hey amber, do you realize that your the one who always has to call?" Are you saying you don't want to be friends with me anymore? Please just come out and say it. If you don't want to be friends then fine. But if were breaking up then I want you to know that you need to realize that all I wanted was an apology for what you did. I don't care that you had a date, I was happy for you and I honestly wouldn't have minded that you wanted to go out the night we had plans, but the fact that you just said yes to him like that and compleltly disregarded the fact that we had plans, and not only was it only dinner he asked you too which means you could have hung out with me after, you just said you were going to dinner with him and that you were sorry because we couldn't hang out because of it. Do you know how worthless that made me feel? Not only is my best friend ditching me, but shes ditching me after we made plans for a long time and since I am only home so often now I don't see you as often and I was really looking foward to it. I am also appaled at the fact that this feeling of someone who cares for you and someone who has so much in common with you is a new feeling for you. WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THEN???!!! I cared so much for you!! People who don't care for you don't make petitions to have your yearbook cover used, they don't stay by your side with you for so many hours at pro-scout meetings, they don't go to your festivals to see you preform and to show their support, they don't listen to you crying over the phone when you call them up. And you were always telling me how you were so happy to find someone that like what you liked!!! Did I mean absolutly nothing to you? I guess I should just realize that a boy is worth more than I am. I personally feel you didn't think I was going to confront you like that when you sent me that e-mail in december and I think thats really the reason why your mad at me. But if its not then you need to tell me why your pissed. You need to realize that people do fuck up, and when your the person that fucked up you need to know you were in the wrong and come out and apologize. Im nowhere near perfect, I know I've done some fucked up shit that made you..and well the whole group pissed at me...I don't ever remember you confronting me about it but you guys should have. But again, your last comment just freaks me out. I can see that you are consumed in your new life...your happy with the new people in your life and don't seem to want me in it anymore. Which is ok, people move on. The least you could have done if you didn't want to be friends with me was call. You were the one in the wrong, I shouldn't be the one starting all this. You know my number in windsor, I know it won't be an easy call to make if you do, but I just want you to know that I am prepared if you don't want to be friends anymore. And if you don't call me, well then I just want you to know how sorry I am all of this happened. Please don't regret anything we shared.....
I NEVER HAD A GUY CARE SO MUCH ABOUT ME BEFORE. Geeze it's one thing to have your friends care about you but to have a guy say he really cares about me, is out of this world. It's the best and scariest feeling ever. Think about it Amber. I worked new years then we went out to dinner then he brought me too meet his friends at a cabin party. Where the hell was there any time to spend with you??? Well you certainly didn't show your support for Jesse and I that night. Once he intervened in your time it wasn't okay. I'm sorry you felt hurt and I really didn't mean for that to happen. I was so very excited. He is such a great guy. I'm sorry.
You don't get it. You just don't get it. If you want to talk about this and save this friendship then call me. Im sick and tired of doing this over livejournal and e-mail. I've absolutly had it. I have enough stress as it is being so far away from home and being completly overwhelmed with university. It's over for me.
Okay now this may sound unbelievably selfish, but I sorta miss hanging out with both of you at the same time... So Kaylen, could you maybe apologize for getting together with Jesse instead of Amber on New Year's? And Amber, could you maybe apologize for reacting so harshly? It may be kinda stupid to end a friendship over this. I mean, I saw how close you guys were. Anyways... maybe I shouldn't be interfering, but you're both great gals... You should be great gals together!
Sorry I didn't mean to sound condescending... I don't mean stupid... I just mean it may not be worth it... Hm... You guys can tell me to back off if you want ...
don't worry about it Leah. You're comments are logical and I respect them. Now for the bitchy side of me. I had so much fun with Jesse on New Years and I don't think I'd ever give that up or apologize for it. I learned so much about him and his life style. It opened my eyes of how judgmental I have been all through out high school.
Heh yeah I find the same thing about being judgemental through high school (haha for me not you). I never realized how short-sited I could be until I got outa Nepean. Isn't it nice to know that, although high school might not be sheer and utter crap, there's life beyond it?
Another thing, leave Jesse out of this. This is not about him. This is about you and me. I have never met the guy, I don't know him so Im not going to bother to say anything about him, none of this is his fault.
I don't even understand your last statement. Are you trying to say "hey amber, do you realize that your the one who always has to call?" Are you saying you don't want to be friends with me anymore? Please just come out and say it. If you don't want to be friends then fine. But if were breaking up then I want you to know that you need to realize that all I wanted was an apology for what you did. I don't care that you had a date, I was happy for you and I honestly wouldn't have minded that you wanted to go out the night we had plans, but the fact that you just said yes to him like that and compleltly disregarded the fact that we had plans, and not only was it only dinner he asked you too which means you could have hung out with me after, you just said you were going to dinner with him and that you were sorry because we couldn't hang out because of it. Do you know how worthless that made me feel? Not only is my best friend ditching me, but shes ditching me after we made plans for a long time and since I am only home so often now I don't see you as often and I was really looking foward to it.
I am also appaled at the fact that this feeling of someone who cares for you and someone who has so much in common with you is a new feeling for you.
WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THEN???!!! I cared so much for you!! People who don't care for you don't make petitions to have your yearbook cover used, they don't stay by your side with you for so many hours at pro-scout meetings, they don't go to your festivals to see you preform and to show their support, they don't listen to you crying over the phone when you call them up. And you were always telling me how you were so happy to find someone that like what you liked!!! Did I mean absolutly nothing to you? I guess I should just realize that a boy is worth more than I am.
I personally feel you didn't think I was going to confront you like that when you sent me that e-mail in december and I think thats really the reason why your mad at me. But if its not then you need to tell me why your pissed. You need to realize that people do fuck up, and when your the person that fucked up you need to know you were in the wrong and come out and apologize. Im nowhere near perfect, I know I've done some fucked up shit that made you..and well the whole group pissed at me...I don't ever remember you confronting me about it but you guys should have.
But again, your last comment just freaks me out. I can see that you are consumed in your new life...your happy with the new people in your life and don't seem to want me in it anymore. Which is ok, people move on. The least you could have done if you didn't want to be friends with me was call. You were the one in the wrong, I shouldn't be the one starting all this. You know my number in windsor, I know it won't be an easy call to make if you do, but I just want you to know that I am prepared if you don't want to be friends anymore. And if you don't call me, well then I just want you to know how sorry I am all of this happened. Please don't regret anything we shared.....
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If you want to talk about this and save this friendship then call me. Im sick and tired of doing this over livejournal and e-mail.
I've absolutly had it. I have enough stress as it is being so far away from home and being completly overwhelmed with university.
It's over for me.
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