don't read this if you don't want to hear me complain

[satanisemo]

I hate my life right now.

Every day I wake up and I wonder how much longer I can keep giving myself to this job that kills me. I am sicker now that I have been since I got out of the hospital and its partially my fault. I feel horrible emotionally, mentally, and physically every day. I can't escape fights at work, with my girlfriend, with my friends, family. Everything fucking blows. I am so tired of committing my life to something that shits on me daily. I seriously think about just driving my car into the divider half of the nights i'm driving home. No one understands that fucking pressure and intensity that is so unnecessary on a daily basis. The level of stress that is constantly thrown around at that place is insane. I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated.I'm so frustrated. I seriously just want to cry. If i'm so horrible why am I even here.