Moonlight and stardust
Have you ever just looked at the moon and let her beams carry away your sadness?....I find myself doing that alot recently, wishing I could change what cannot be changed, wishing to become something I cannot be, wishing I could take away the pain in certain peoples lives, and well, just wishing.
I have had the profound pleasure of meeting a wonderful new family, who one day I hope to have the honour of calling 'My Family', never before have I met such wonderful people who I can feel at ease around and find a little peace in my insane life right now, you have taught me how to breathe again...........Thank you xx
One special person has come into my life, brought so much love and light that I find it hard to not burst with pride everytime I look into those beautiful multi coloured eyes, you know who you are and than kyou for being there, please never ever change! your perfect in my eyes. Your little nuances make you so much more fun to to know, and the fact we have very similar ones will make our journey so much more interesting. We have spent so much time by the waters edge, quietly learning to listen to each others hearts, something I have never done before with anyone, fully letting my guard down around you and speaking from my heart about how I am feeling, whether it be happy, tired or afraid. I know I can come to you with any problem and not have to fear being laughed at for being weak, and for that I will always hold you close to my heart.
I have always had a huge problem with trust, due to some severe things that have happened in my past. but finally I am finding that every day, its getting a little easier to truly trust, not just a shadow of it anymore. And sometimes finding the right words is the hardest of all. The fact that i have changed as a person is immensely scary to me, and other times I am proud of who I am becoming..... hopefuly a much better person to have in your life.
This journey has made me take a step back from my old life and change what has needed to be changed and let go of what has definately needed to be shedded.
My friends have become so close to me, especially 3 who have become much more like family, the wonderfully beautiful Dawn - who has been my rock when I felt like I was drowning, the gentle peace that is Alex - who made me realise not all men are assholes, and of course the lovely Raven - who is my sis now and always. To the 3 of you I owe so very much, and without you I very much doubt that I would still be here to write these words, thank you for saving my life. I only hope i can make you all as proud of me as I am of you.......
Love and light to you all xxx
I have had the profound pleasure of meeting a wonderful new family, who one day I hope to have the honour of calling 'My Family', never before have I met such wonderful people who I can feel at ease around and find a little peace in my insane life right now, you have taught me how to breathe again...........Thank you xx
One special person has come into my life, brought so much love and light that I find it hard to not burst with pride everytime I look into those beautiful multi coloured eyes, you know who you are and than kyou for being there, please never ever change! your perfect in my eyes. Your little nuances make you so much more fun to to know, and the fact we have very similar ones will make our journey so much more interesting. We have spent so much time by the waters edge, quietly learning to listen to each others hearts, something I have never done before with anyone, fully letting my guard down around you and speaking from my heart about how I am feeling, whether it be happy, tired or afraid. I know I can come to you with any problem and not have to fear being laughed at for being weak, and for that I will always hold you close to my heart.
I have always had a huge problem with trust, due to some severe things that have happened in my past. but finally I am finding that every day, its getting a little easier to truly trust, not just a shadow of it anymore. And sometimes finding the right words is the hardest of all. The fact that i have changed as a person is immensely scary to me, and other times I am proud of who I am becoming..... hopefuly a much better person to have in your life.
This journey has made me take a step back from my old life and change what has needed to be changed and let go of what has definately needed to be shedded.
My friends have become so close to me, especially 3 who have become much more like family, the wonderfully beautiful Dawn - who has been my rock when I felt like I was drowning, the gentle peace that is Alex - who made me realise not all men are assholes, and of course the lovely Raven - who is my sis now and always. To the 3 of you I owe so very much, and without you I very much doubt that I would still be here to write these words, thank you for saving my life. I only hope i can make you all as proud of me as I am of you.......
Love and light to you all xxx