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Last night was too emotional. It was too hard. I swear I wont tell another soul so much shit like I did last night.
Anyway...today was Leerainas 17th b-day.....Lisas oldest child. She had me almost in tears saying how its her 1st b-day without her mother, and she was telling me all about the last days she was with her mother. not cool.
Im supposed to get my ear done tomorrow. Richard is supposed to find out if he can get it cheaper. 70 bucks is way to much.
I have to work 12-5 tomorrow, I have to work 4 hours with Mark. Then hanging with Amanda after she gets out of work.
The medication Im on makes me have no appetite. So i havent really eaten much of anything in a while. Im losing weight. But its not making me any happier.
Jason wants to hang out. I guess Ill hang out with him. I dunno. I dont want another guy in my life that I scare away like the rest. And I know it will happen, so im keeping my distance.
Ive had a reaccuring dream every night this week of my father dieing. And since he JUST got out of the hospital after being on a resperator...I cant deal with that right now. Ive had multiple reaccuring dreams come true. And Id be lieing if I said I wasnt scared. Because its tearing me up inside.
What a happy entry.
Anyway...today was Leerainas 17th b-day.....Lisas oldest child. She had me almost in tears saying how its her 1st b-day without her mother, and she was telling me all about the last days she was with her mother. not cool.
Im supposed to get my ear done tomorrow. Richard is supposed to find out if he can get it cheaper. 70 bucks is way to much.
I have to work 12-5 tomorrow, I have to work 4 hours with Mark. Then hanging with Amanda after she gets out of work.
The medication Im on makes me have no appetite. So i havent really eaten much of anything in a while. Im losing weight. But its not making me any happier.
Jason wants to hang out. I guess Ill hang out with him. I dunno. I dont want another guy in my life that I scare away like the rest. And I know it will happen, so im keeping my distance.
Ive had a reaccuring dream every night this week of my father dieing. And since he JUST got out of the hospital after being on a resperator...I cant deal with that right now. Ive had multiple reaccuring dreams come true. And Id be lieing if I said I wasnt scared. Because its tearing me up inside.
What a happy entry.