So Fragile Yet So Devious, She Continues To See It
- I’m A Slave And I Am A Master.
The World Closed Me Out A Long Time Ago, It Locked Me Out & Said To Me You Hold Something In Your Mind That WE Do Not Want.
What Did WE Mean, 2 Possibilities I Thought To Myself.
With The Diary I Placed In My Jacket’s Inside Pocket & A Pen Behind My Ear I Rapidly Scribbled Down My Two (2) Possibilities of WE. There Are Many Possibilities Of WE Yet To Me There is Only Two (2), The Rest Of The World Never Has Mattered To Me But Like Always They Found A Loop-Hole Into My Brain Like Rain’s Drops Leaking Through The Smallest Of Cracks.
Entry #1: November 19, 2015 ; 8:06 AM.
- Possibility 1: It Could Mean The World & The Cruel Humans On It Did Definitely Not Want My Mind’s Mental Insanity & All Voted To Boot Me Out, Like A Virtual World Boots Out It’s Obnoxious Low Life Avatars/Users.
- Possibility 2: Maybe - Just Maybe, It Was Me Who Did Not Want To Hold A Stable Place On Earth’s Boundaries & There Is A Perfect Explanation For This Simple Possibility.
Of Course As Folly As I Am, I Decided To Tell Myself That It Was Both Possibilities Combined Into One (1), It Was Possible Right ? RIGHT ?
Maybe Both The World And I, Myself Didn’t Want To Be On The Fucking Earth. I’ve Ruined People ; Wait Let Me Re-Phrase That, My Insanity Has Ruined People. As Much As I Tried To Convince People That I Wasn’t Mentally Insane They Never Believed My Word. Much Like My Mother Always Said ’ I Do Not Believe You Scarlett !’, These Six (6) Words Were Always Spoken To Me Each Time I Struggled To Convince My Mother Of The Many Bad Doings My Sister Created. Those Bad Doings Always Blamed On Me, No Justice, No Time For Explanation.
I Was Six (6) The Very Last Time Those Six (6) Cruel Fucking Words Were Spoken To Me, The Simple Six (6) ; Coincidence The Creation Of The Number Of The Beast In My Words, In My Doings. Everything Spun Around Like A Coin Flipped In The Cold Air, Head OR Tails You Never Knew What You Would Get From Me - Sometimes You’d Get Both at Once.
I Was & Still Am A Skin Ticket, A One Way Trip To Fucking Insanity’s Deepest Hell. The Situations I Created Never Normal Always Beyond The Cautious Boundary. If Someone Made A Mentos’ And Coca-Cola Soda Volcano, I Made A Lava Exploding Bomb. If A Little Girl Were To Kick A Boy In The Scrotum I’d Kick Them In The Heart - Always Where It Hurt The Most To Those Bastards Titled Humans.
ORIGINAL NAME : SCARLETT ENKELI VUORI
MEANING OF ENKELI : ANGEL
MEANING OF VUORI : MOUNTAIN
COMBINE THEM & TA-FUCKING-DA : ANGEL MOUNTAIN
AGE WHEN CHANGED: SIX (16)
CURRENT AGE: SIXTEEN (21)
CHANGED NAME : SCARLETT PAHOLAINEN VUORI
MEANING OF PAHOLAINEN : DEVIL
PAHOLAINEN VUORI
DEVIL MOUNTAIN
I’ll Write Soon, I Swear On My Soul’s Grave I Will Vanish Every Fucking Human That Harmed Me, Every Single One Of Them.
Razorblades & Hand-Grenades,
Scarlett Paholainen Vuori.