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My life makes no sense whatsoever.
At least I know I'm insane. But how do you quantify it? How do you know how much you should be worried about it? The medication just seems to have made everything worse. Now I'm weak. I don't feel like I'm in control. I'm finding it harder to maintain and to function. I have to be very careful in my daily activities because my heart can't take anything too dramatic or negative. I don't like to listen to music too much or watch tv or read at all. Everything hurts. It's like I'm using all my energy to protect myself from my own thoughts. I constantly say things I wish I hadn't. It's hard to focus. My moods are weird and erratic. My thoughts are intrusive and chaotic. I'm permanently uncomfortable and it always feels like there's something wrong.
I'm thinking that it would help if I get in good health, start eating right, get in shape and exercise regularly. Like that's ever going to happen.
At least I know I'm insane. But how do you quantify it? How do you know how much you should be worried about it? The medication just seems to have made everything worse. Now I'm weak. I don't feel like I'm in control. I'm finding it harder to maintain and to function. I have to be very careful in my daily activities because my heart can't take anything too dramatic or negative. I don't like to listen to music too much or watch tv or read at all. Everything hurts. It's like I'm using all my energy to protect myself from my own thoughts. I constantly say things I wish I hadn't. It's hard to focus. My moods are weird and erratic. My thoughts are intrusive and chaotic. I'm permanently uncomfortable and it always feels like there's something wrong.
I'm thinking that it would help if I get in good health, start eating right, get in shape and exercise regularly. Like that's ever going to happen.