私はあとどのぐらい頑張れるのかな？
新年あけましておめでとうございます。今年もよろしくお願いします。
i know it's a little bit late but i wish you all a happy new year and i hope that your wishes for 2012 will come true.
after spending christmas most of the time alone in bed and spending silvester with some friends i went to stuttgart to take the toefl test (99 points ^^)... i've stayed 4 days at my sisters flat... i felt like a stranger... even getting into the subway felt strange...
it doesn't feel like home anymore... walking down the streets i've walked down a hundred times before feels just like a journey into the past...it's strange how things have changed.
the last three months i've spent most of the time at home... being sick for almost three months without getting a diagnosis kind of sucks ><
most of my friends are going to japan this year... on one side i'm really happy for them 'cause they've all tried really hard to get there but on the other side i am the only one who's left here... though i'm trying to get to japan it seems so impossible and useless...
everytime they're talking about going to japan i'm getting sad (not just because they're getting all i've wanted since i came back to germany in 2008 but because of the fact they'll be not here anymore)... but shouldn't i be happy for them and just share their happiness?
everytime i look at you i think about how many months there are still left for us and i'm getting afraid of losing you...
only the thought of losing you terrifies me... being in japan will change you... and it will change the thing between us, which feels so good and makes me really happy everyday we're together ... falling in love with you was really beyond my control...
after reading maru's latest lj entry there was a feeling of nostalgia... reading through my lj really feels like a journey into the past..
it's sad that we forget about most of the happy or sad moments we've experienced... but like maru said it was never easy but we kept going... my friends took also a great part in keeping me going and i am really thankful for that... thank you my dears <3!
next week i'll have another interview for an exchange student program... wish me luck :)
i know it's a little bit late but i wish you all a happy new year and i hope that your wishes for 2012 will come true.
after spending christmas most of the time alone in bed and spending silvester with some friends i went to stuttgart to take the toefl test (99 points ^^)... i've stayed 4 days at my sisters flat... i felt like a stranger... even getting into the subway felt strange...
it doesn't feel like home anymore... walking down the streets i've walked down a hundred times before feels just like a journey into the past...it's strange how things have changed.
the last three months i've spent most of the time at home... being sick for almost three months without getting a diagnosis kind of sucks ><
most of my friends are going to japan this year... on one side i'm really happy for them 'cause they've all tried really hard to get there but on the other side i am the only one who's left here... though i'm trying to get to japan it seems so impossible and useless...
everytime they're talking about going to japan i'm getting sad (not just because they're getting all i've wanted since i came back to germany in 2008 but because of the fact they'll be not here anymore)... but shouldn't i be happy for them and just share their happiness?
everytime i look at you i think about how many months there are still left for us and i'm getting afraid of losing you...
only the thought of losing you terrifies me... being in japan will change you... and it will change the thing between us, which feels so good and makes me really happy everyday we're together ... falling in love with you was really beyond my control...
after reading maru's latest lj entry there was a feeling of nostalgia... reading through my lj really feels like a journey into the past..
it's sad that we forget about most of the happy or sad moments we've experienced... but like maru said it was never easy but we kept going... my friends took also a great part in keeping me going and i am really thankful for that... thank you my dears <3!
next week i'll have another interview for an exchange student program... wish me luck :)