Someties I just need to be broken again.
Woke up and went to a new church today. We went to Grace. It was okay...
Afterwards I went shopping with Bev and my Mom dear. It twas fun. I love it. I got some really cute skirts and some stuff from GAP. I found these silver sparkly shoes that were way cool and a giant yellow purse that I fell in LOVE with lol. So yeah I didn't know we were going shopping after church so I had on these heeals and then had to walk in them all around the mall so my footsies are KILLING me!!
I talked to a friend last night that really helped me out. I dunno my lifes been kinda crazy lately and so i've just been pretending that everythings all right cuz I don't think I could deal with it all. I've been kinda avoiding God all together because I was just mad at myself and him and the world for hurting the people I love. But after talking to him I realized that its not God's fault, he didn't do this to me and I'll get through it for the better. So I prayed about it all and I woke up this morning and my Dad came up to me and gave me a huge hug and asked me to go to dinner with him tonight because he was noticing that they don't really pay attention to me any more because their so busy with everything. I was so shockked... I guess just when I felt like I couldn't handle it any more God helped me out. Any ways sometimes I think we all just need to be broken again. Because its the times when we're at our lowest and the times when we have nothing that we realize that we have God here for us, and we learn to depend on Him. I know that God has amazing plans for my life and that some day I'm going to be a history maker. This summer I've really learned that I need to just give my entire life to him and let him use me. I know that everybodyu has tough situations that they have to deal with in their lives...but getting through them only makes us stronger and better people. As we get older we learn that you can't depend on people or things because they will only let you down. God is the only stable one in my life that will never dissapoint me. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. I've been turning to the wrong sources lately for the answers to my problems. Especially to guys, and I know that they can never fufill me or make me happy. Because if I can't be happy and content without them then I certainly can't be with them. I know that when the guy that God has chosen for me comes along that their wont be a doubt in my mind. Until I find him I just need to be patient because why should I waste my time on empty relationships and heart breaks? I never have before so I've decided that I'm not about to start. I know what I deserve and I don't plan to settle for less. Ok...I'm done, FINALLY
xoxo
~*~Emily~*~
Now its deff nap time cuz its raining and rainy days are the best for napping!
Afterwards I went shopping with Bev and my Mom dear. It twas fun. I love it. I got some really cute skirts and some stuff from GAP. I found these silver sparkly shoes that were way cool and a giant yellow purse that I fell in LOVE with lol. So yeah I didn't know we were going shopping after church so I had on these heeals and then had to walk in them all around the mall so my footsies are KILLING me!!
I talked to a friend last night that really helped me out. I dunno my lifes been kinda crazy lately and so i've just been pretending that everythings all right cuz I don't think I could deal with it all. I've been kinda avoiding God all together because I was just mad at myself and him and the world for hurting the people I love. But after talking to him I realized that its not God's fault, he didn't do this to me and I'll get through it for the better. So I prayed about it all and I woke up this morning and my Dad came up to me and gave me a huge hug and asked me to go to dinner with him tonight because he was noticing that they don't really pay attention to me any more because their so busy with everything. I was so shockked... I guess just when I felt like I couldn't handle it any more God helped me out. Any ways sometimes I think we all just need to be broken again. Because its the times when we're at our lowest and the times when we have nothing that we realize that we have God here for us, and we learn to depend on Him. I know that God has amazing plans for my life and that some day I'm going to be a history maker. This summer I've really learned that I need to just give my entire life to him and let him use me. I know that everybodyu has tough situations that they have to deal with in their lives...but getting through them only makes us stronger and better people. As we get older we learn that you can't depend on people or things because they will only let you down. God is the only stable one in my life that will never dissapoint me. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. I've been turning to the wrong sources lately for the answers to my problems. Especially to guys, and I know that they can never fufill me or make me happy. Because if I can't be happy and content without them then I certainly can't be with them. I know that when the guy that God has chosen for me comes along that their wont be a doubt in my mind. Until I find him I just need to be patient because why should I waste my time on empty relationships and heart breaks? I never have before so I've decided that I'm not about to start. I know what I deserve and I don't plan to settle for less. Ok...I'm done, FINALLY
xoxo
~*~Emily~*~
Now its deff nap time cuz its raining and rainy days are the best for napping!