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We talked, i say we talked...he talked about how he felt, i talked about how i felt very crypticly and we both dicided we didn't no what to do.
He left and and i sent him an E-mail telling him everything i wanted to say before but couldn't. I well and truely told him everything i could. I dont no if it was a good thing but i did it. I feel sick
He left and and i sent him an E-mail telling him everything i wanted to say before but couldn't. I well and truely told him everything i could. I dont no if it was a good thing but i did it. I feel sick
Yeah, im startin to see all this much more positivly. It was hard at first...i really couldn't stop crying everytime i thought about it. It feels kinda silly, i've been seein the guy for 2 months and it breaks my heart to think i might lose him. I don't no.....i told how i feel....he was ok with. Took it better than most i reckon. I realised today that i needed to be rational about it. I told him that no matter what, we need to make the best of any time we have left and not to worry till everything is set in stone and we no when he's going....cross that bridge when we come to it. I told him last night that i needed him to no i didn't want to give up and that i hoped we'd get through it.....at first i was having doubts....but im coming round to the idea i think. He knows i dont want him to go.....he doesnt really want to go. He does in a way but...he has his reasons. I 'm feeling better than i have been. I've stopped blubbing....just. Every sooften it gets to me. I spoken to my sister, auntie and mum (mum, as best i could..shes away at the minute) they've all been pretty supportive....i think i need to tal to mum properly tho. He asked me something last night. It was a bit far fetched and i don't no how serious he was but for a split second i felt a glimmer of hope....i wish i knew how it was going to turn out.
Sorry.....mini essay!
Thank You K
XxX
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