Valentines Day. Gayness.
So... Valentines Day is in two days... and this royally sucks... two years ago... I was with Robbie... last year I was alone... and I had to have surgery... shitty... I hate Valentines Day... I miss being with someone... actually being with someone... not just "talking" I want to be with someone... I want them to want me the way I want them... I want them to care about me ... and love me... for who I am... and I want to be able to talk to that person about whatever and not worry about how they might think of me after that... I dont know... I'm just really depressed right now... and it sucks... I hate feeling this way...
But like in my last entry told you I've been talkin to this guy for a lil under a year now... and all that good stuff... well IDK I'm done talkin to him... the way he talks to me and the way he acts gives me two different signals... and he made me cry last nite.. and IDK I just dont like it anymore... usually he makes me feel so good about myself and whatnot... but lately... he just makes me feel like shit... mainly ever since he moved to FL... before he moved there he never acted like this or anything... I dont know... I'm just tired of getting hurt.. and screwed over... it's really getting old... honestly... Oh well though... I guess thats just my life...
I miss Robbie... a lot... and IDK... I've been crying lately more now than before... and it sucks... I love him... and I dont think he knew it... after everything he did to me I would still have taken him back... I love him sooo much... but he's gone now... and theres nothing I can do about it... and thats the worst feeling..
I wonder why I bother????? I wonder why I cry???? I go through all this trouble... I do it for drugs... I do it for just feel like I have... I do it for the love... that I get from the bottom of a bottle....
I can't really think of anything good in my life right now to update about...
I'm supposed to hang out with Camron today... we'll see if that happens since the last two times hes hoed me out... what a shocker.. eh?
alright... I'm out...
bye ya'all
you know the drill...
comment...
or get kicked in the ass...
kthnx... bye...
<3 Meggan <3
But like in my last entry told you I've been talkin to this guy for a lil under a year now... and all that good stuff... well IDK I'm done talkin to him... the way he talks to me and the way he acts gives me two different signals... and he made me cry last nite.. and IDK I just dont like it anymore... usually he makes me feel so good about myself and whatnot... but lately... he just makes me feel like shit... mainly ever since he moved to FL... before he moved there he never acted like this or anything... I dont know... I'm just tired of getting hurt.. and screwed over... it's really getting old... honestly... Oh well though... I guess thats just my life...
I miss Robbie... a lot... and IDK... I've been crying lately more now than before... and it sucks... I love him... and I dont think he knew it... after everything he did to me I would still have taken him back... I love him sooo much... but he's gone now... and theres nothing I can do about it... and thats the worst feeling..
I wonder why I bother????? I wonder why I cry???? I go through all this trouble... I do it for drugs... I do it for just feel like I have... I do it for the love... that I get from the bottom of a bottle....
I can't really think of anything good in my life right now to update about...
I'm supposed to hang out with Camron today... we'll see if that happens since the last two times hes hoed me out... what a shocker.. eh?
alright... I'm out...
bye ya'all
you know the drill...
comment...
or get kicked in the ass...
kthnx... bye...
<3 Meggan <3