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Im up again.. but only cuz i took them again.. cuz im hoping they will help me lose weight.. plus im off work tomorrow so it doesnt matter.. today was ok... got up after like an hour sleep went shopping.. came home called brian while i went and picked up Drew.. Came home did cake and presents then chilled out for a little while before i had to be at work... Work was ok.. went by pretty quick.. I talked to steph and shes having issues.. this guy chris shes been in love with forever wants to hook it up with her.. so she doesnt kno what to do.. I told her to follow her heart.. thats all she can do... Me and Brian talked for a while.. he may come up and see me Saturday nite.. and stay til sunday.. but if not hopefully ill see him sunday anyways.. cuz im off... but this is the way im gonna look at it.. im not gonna get my hopes up.. if he really wants to see me he will make the effort.. cuz theres nothin more i can do.. he knows i wanna see him and all so gotta just go with the flow i guess.. but Steph wants me to go with her saturday to the club.. shes meeting chris and his friend up there.. so we'll see how things go.. i am feelng crazy.. been drinkin the hell out of some water.. in a little bit imma do some crunches and stuff and then try to wind down... i got some sleeping pills but im not gonna mix em... cuz thats not a good idea.. im really bored.. Brian is gone to bed so i have no one to talk to.. i wish someone would come visit me or something.. i am so BORED!!!!.. im tired of the tv.. the radio is gettin on my nerves.. im not gonna drive anywhere.. so i dunno im just stuck.. i guess i could clean out my little closet.... Well thats all for now.. later