waking up is hard to do
Becky just brought up a great point. I let my pmsing emotions trap me into this sort of crazed depression for a week. I never realize its my hormones amplifying everything until its too late. So im going to stop short today and be happy. Making the decision makes it easier to carry through. Edit: 10:19
I am having a hard time waking up more and more. Again. Im just not sure what I am waking up for so I linger in bed for what feels like forever. It makes me late to work, late in my day. I need endorphins...to be working out in the morning or waking up to pop music.
I know I'm being really really unhealthy lately. In my thoughts, because food wise i'm probably eating the best and most portioned meals in my life. Weekends are still a bit iffy but you know - I love Mexican food!
But I am being unhealthy lately. I go over things again and again. And these are things I simply cant write down. I have unhealthy obsessions that I never used to have before. And I am just waiting. Because I know it wont always be like this. i am biding my time. Letting everything crescendo because I know that not too long from now it will all just die down. And I will be waking up again happy, and excited to start my day.
Isn't it good to embrace your depression?
I am having a hard time waking up more and more. Again. Im just not sure what I am waking up for so I linger in bed for what feels like forever. It makes me late to work, late in my day. I need endorphins...to be working out in the morning or waking up to pop music.
I know I'm being really really unhealthy lately. In my thoughts, because food wise i'm probably eating the best and most portioned meals in my life. Weekends are still a bit iffy but you know - I love Mexican food!
But I am being unhealthy lately. I go over things again and again. And these are things I simply cant write down. I have unhealthy obsessions that I never used to have before. And I am just waiting. Because I know it wont always be like this. i am biding my time. Letting everything crescendo because I know that not too long from now it will all just die down. And I will be waking up again happy, and excited to start my day.
Isn't it good to embrace your depression?