Where the hell is that pause button!?!
Here I am, about to go to school. I don't feel like going to school. I feel and look like shit.
I've been trying to puch it away but I can feel it coming. I'm getting depressed. Fuck it. I've already started blocking people outta my life. If you know me, you know that's like the first signs of depression. And I have no idea how my system picks who to block out! I just end up not talking to them. You, like I have so much to say but all I can muster up is "hey" and it's weird coz usually this happens to someone I'm so comfortable with I can yap their ear off like there's no tomorrow.
Gawd, it's so sad coz no amount of shopping is making me feel better. It's like 5 minutes of happiness and it's gone. I'm back in that rat hole I was in before. Shit. And my teacher's always giving freecuts is not helping. Everytime I have nothing to do, I end up thinking and when I start thinking... well, it's like only the worse possible things enter my mind. I realized how messed up everything is (even when it's not).
Idleness fucking kills.
I wish I could frickin' pause my life and run off some where to just rest. Take my mind off things... people... school... firends... parents... everything.
I don't even know why I feel so bad?!?!?!
I've been trying to puch it away but I can feel it coming. I'm getting depressed. Fuck it. I've already started blocking people outta my life. If you know me, you know that's like the first signs of depression. And I have no idea how my system picks who to block out! I just end up not talking to them. You, like I have so much to say but all I can muster up is "hey" and it's weird coz usually this happens to someone I'm so comfortable with I can yap their ear off like there's no tomorrow.
Gawd, it's so sad coz no amount of shopping is making me feel better. It's like 5 minutes of happiness and it's gone. I'm back in that rat hole I was in before. Shit. And my teacher's always giving freecuts is not helping. Everytime I have nothing to do, I end up thinking and when I start thinking... well, it's like only the worse possible things enter my mind. I realized how messed up everything is (even when it's not).
Idleness fucking kills.
I wish I could frickin' pause my life and run off some where to just rest. Take my mind off things... people... school... firends... parents... everything.
I don't even know why I feel so bad?!?!?!