Well fuck me....
WAIT!!!!!!!
..I already fucked myself. And it made me cry.
So I've been taking this EMT class at work....got a great deal on the cost, taken weekly out of my check, not a problem, I can afford it. And I'll make more when its over, and any chance to expand my knowledge...that whole rigamorole......
so I get my paycheck today, less hours due to class, I knew it was coming.
$154 bucks. Period. Fucked...more than fucked.
I purposefully do not have many bills. I pay cash. I dont' have credit of any kind. I have a cell phone bill, a cable bill. And money every week to my mom who pays all my household bills and house payment. That's it. Groceries, kids money. But $154 will not begin to cover that lil bit. FUCKED! so I am either going to have to quit the class (major fucked idea) or accept money from Patrick. He wants to give me cash so I can make it, he doesnt' want me to quit the class...but then there is the whole issue of relying on him to make up what I am not covering. I hate that idea. It's the best solution, but I hate it. I work my ass of to take care of my kids, I go without shit I really need because they want something. I refuse to admit defeat and have to beg for anything. And now I have no option. I give up either way I go here. I need the class, it'll be better in the long run, but I can't do it because I can't afford 2 months with literally nothing in my pocket. I can't have someone else supporting my kids, They are mine. I had them, I take care of them, I bust my ass for them to have what they need and what they want. And now, I am not even sure I can feed and house them, let alone buy them anything else.
FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
..I already fucked myself. And it made me cry.
So I've been taking this EMT class at work....got a great deal on the cost, taken weekly out of my check, not a problem, I can afford it. And I'll make more when its over, and any chance to expand my knowledge...that whole rigamorole......
so I get my paycheck today, less hours due to class, I knew it was coming.
$154 bucks. Period. Fucked...more than fucked.
I purposefully do not have many bills. I pay cash. I dont' have credit of any kind. I have a cell phone bill, a cable bill. And money every week to my mom who pays all my household bills and house payment. That's it. Groceries, kids money. But $154 will not begin to cover that lil bit. FUCKED! so I am either going to have to quit the class (major fucked idea) or accept money from Patrick. He wants to give me cash so I can make it, he doesnt' want me to quit the class...but then there is the whole issue of relying on him to make up what I am not covering. I hate that idea. It's the best solution, but I hate it. I work my ass of to take care of my kids, I go without shit I really need because they want something. I refuse to admit defeat and have to beg for anything. And now I have no option. I give up either way I go here. I need the class, it'll be better in the long run, but I can't do it because I can't afford 2 months with literally nothing in my pocket. I can't have someone else supporting my kids, They are mine. I had them, I take care of them, I bust my ass for them to have what they need and what they want. And now, I am not even sure I can feed and house them, let alone buy them anything else.
FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!