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[sassyasskitty]

Hell. My life is Hell. I hate my mother, the all knowing, yet uncaring fat whiny bitch that she is. And joy of joys, I hear myself saying things as she does. After an incredibly lovely fight over how I feed my kids, give them food first, then get mine, damn am I evil, she took my kids to a movie to get them away from 'mommy in a bad mood, you know how she gets', then came home and proceeded to ignore me as if I dont' exist. Lovely, it did so much for me as a child, glad to see it still works on me as an adult. My exhubby is the happiest I have ever seen him due to the love of life finally saying she likes him too, yes please, tell me more about how great it is. Tell me how she is everything you want, and how you wish you could have her mind, body, and soul. Yea! I want to hear about how she gets my family, dammit, I did everythign I was supposed to. I had my house, my hubby, dinner on the table, no tv dinners, real fucking meals, laundry, had the kids, did it all as it should be done. Now she gets my family. Fuck!!!!
I have no idea, as I only love those who are blind, stupid, and depreciating. The guy I have cared about for literal years now is making me depressive and annoying to be near. And I have become a romance novel reject, sleeping in the shirt of the guy i can't have, being depressivly bitchy to everyone because I'm depressed that i'm a moron. Joy joy joy. shoot me now. Put everyone out of my misery. I can't even get excited over my new house, just knowing that I will still be a sap over people that dont' care about me. I can make a home look like a home, but I can't make it feel like one.