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Sitting at home, knock on the door, Jesse. We sat and talked for awhile, decided after my kids went to their daddy's, I'd go over to his house to watch a movie and have a few beers. When I got there, his best friend from high school had stopped by, we all sat around talking, and Jesse kept telling him, 'this is my number one girl. No matter who I ever meet, no one compares.' I'd heard this before, he has always said that about me, very amusing to see a chick he is hitting on give me the evil eye. But then, "One of these days, she finally give up and I'll marry her. The only girl I'd ever think of marrying, she just won't agree yet." ***falls over in shock*** Never ever ever have I heard anything like that come out of his mouth. We have talked about the fact that no matter what, no matter who we are involved with, we still love each other. Circumstances have never been right for us to be deeply involved, but as I get along with my ex now, and his ex hates the hell out of me, and holds his kid hostage if she knows Jesse and I have even seen each other, I never exected to hear him say anything like marriage. Wow. Still shocked. Not a yippee woohooorahhh, let me go grab a dress real fast thing in my head. Just the suggestion is surprising as hell. i had always told him as he has told me, no matter how long it's been since we have seen each other, no matter what is going on, He knows I love him, I'll always be there for him, anything he needs, I will get him, and even if its been 50 yrs, we will still be smiling as we see each other again. I literally have no idea where this may go this time, alot has changed since we first met. But as much good stuff as is going on with the kids and the house buying, I damn well hope there is a chance to at least be around him more. I miss seeing his smile, his hugs, just beign around him, always enjoy myself, and I dont' want to lose that for any period of time again.